The Light of Kshahrewar Belongs to Me [Haikaveh]

[CRYBABY]

That was not the response Alhaitham was expecting. He was never really sure what he'd get from Kaveh. The pair was explosive, they were difficult, they brought the worst and the best out of each other, though to unknowing eyes it seemed like only the worst. He stood, backing away from the situation to allow the blonde some space. Had he been blind this entire time? Was everything he had done, all he prepared for, every meticulous plan he put in place for Kaveh's sake was nothing more than insults and criticism to the blonde? And what did Kaveh mean that he has noticed him? Celestial, Alhaitham was a fool. He stood silent, when he spoke again his tone was direct. "That was not my intention, Kaveh, your well being is important to me. I was trying to help you."

What did I do wrong wrong? How can I be better? What do you need from me? If only he could reach into the depths of his mind and bring these questions forth.

"No." Alhaitham's voice rang louder than intended, the idea of Kaveh moving out burning a hole in his chest. "Self deprecation is clouding your judgment, you're drunk, and based on what you flushed down the toilet you haven't eaten all night." Alhaitham hesitated briefly to touch Kaveh considering the recoil he received the first time, but that didn't stop him from hooking his hand beneath the blonde's arms and lifting him to his feet. "If you wish to leave here, fine, but do so with a clear mind. Otherwise you are to stay with me, understood?" he explained leading them to the kitchen where he had Kaveh's dinner neatly plated and waiting for him in the fridge.

[cynnabnnuy]

Alhaitham's silence was heavy, something common in the home, but it only served to make him sink further into his own self-hatred as he tried not to break further. He was not at all prepared for the scribe's reply, though. It made the blonde look up briefly, distrust clear on his features before he shook his head. Resting it back on his knees with a small, sad sigh, he hugged his legs tighter before the other outright rejected his thought-out plan. "No?!" Voice cracking, Kaveh frowned up at the other man, exasperated by the response as he tried to avoid pouting when the other called out his lack of nutrition. So what? It wasn't like he ate regularly anyway, and it helped save money, so it was fine...

Outright squawking when lifted, though, the architect flustered at the feeling, trying to push the other away as he shook his head quickly. "H-Haitham!" His voice cracked at the exclamation, his arms trying to pry the other's hands off of him despite lacking any sense of coordination. "Stop! Wh- where are you even taking me? I can walk on my own!" Slurring slightly, he squirmed, trying to pull out of the other's grasp to get back to the bathroom. "Can't you just give me a minute or something? I can eat t'morrow, and I don't wanna leave the bathroom yet!" Kaveh being a bad liar arc go! "I'll stay, but jeez! C'mon Al!"

[CRYBABY]

Alhaitham stopped briefly at Kaveh's plea allowing his senior to try to make a case for himself. Kaveh failed. Based on their current situation there was no reason for Kaveh to return to the bathroom unless he was planning to lock himself inside for the rest of the night and Alhaitham was not breaking down another door just to take the blonde to bed. "You will eat today. Right now." Taking every ounce of restraint he had to not correct Kaveh with a witty 'It is tomorrow already', Alhaitham silently yanked Kaveh to the kitchen ignoring any further protest. His self-deprecation was getting worse, it was clear he wasn't taking care of himself, he was slurring words, and he was leading with his emotions-- all signs to Alhaitham that Kaveh wasn't in a place to make rational decisions. That was fine, the scribe was happy to make every decision for the both of them.

Stern but gently Alhaitham held Kaveh by the wrist as he began heating up the food, ensuring that there was no where he could run to without taking Alhaitham with him. Once the food was ready and Kaveh was done bickering, Alhaitham sat at their table pulling Kaveh into his lap. Quickly he firmly wrapped his arm around the blonde's waist so he couldn't get away even if he tried. "I suggest you eat before we both end up sleeping at the dinner table tonight." The fork was presented to Kaveh, it was up to him whether he'd be eating like a grown man or being spoon fed by his insufferable roommate.

[cynnabnnuy]

He grimaced at the response, still desperately trying to keep from leaving the bathroom as he shook his head. The scribe was irrational in his own right, clearly not understanding the very obvious need the blonde was trying to convey without voicing it in full. "Please, Haitham-" Begging pleas fell on empty ears as they struggled, the architect soon realizing he'd probably get what he needed faster if he gave the other what he wanted. So, despite the way he still squirmed and tried to find anything to distract himself, he let Alhaitham guide him along. He followed him to the kitchen with a small final whine before yelping as the other made everything worse.

"W-wai-!" Barely even getting the words out, Kaveh choked on a warbled sob while the other spoke and he cracked. His face went scarlet instantly, his thighs pushed together on the other's lap to try and stop himself fruitlessly as warmth spread. The arm around his waist had pushed just right on his organs to force his too-full bladder to burst, his shame soaking their laps all too quickly as he started to cry. He'd never live it down, never be able to face anyone with the embarrassment of what he'd done as he covered his face with both hands. He was thoroughly humiliated, unable to speak as he emptied himself on his roommate's legs, the chair, and their floor as the piss puddled under them. How could he even look at the other the same after that? How would they exist when he'd done something so... vile? He hated how good it felt, how his body melted into the feeling, h̶o̶w̶ ̶h̶e̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶d̶ ̶i̶t̶. He was disgusting! Alhaitham was going to be so disappointed and they'd just made some form of progress!