What will I do without you...?

[NicTheDjinn]

When this all began, he was on a jog, being home was no fun. But then again, jogging was no fun. He usually worked out in the privacy of his room. He didn’t jog that often, let alone run. What would he need to run for? That’s when someone shot out from another street that he was jogging towards, they were bolting down the street towards him. And yelling for him to run. Katsuki slowed to a stop and just stared at them, then seeing what they were running from. What the hell was that? It was someone with their entire arm ripped off, but they were running after the person telling him to run. Katsuki then turned on his heel and bolted home, now he realized what he would need to run for. Shit like this. What the fuck was going on?

He panted heavily as he ran. Then jumped over a body on the ground, but then it’s arm shot out and grabbed him. He yelped and was dragged to the ground. Katsuki reaches back and blew explosions in the persons face, then grabbing their hand and blowing it off. And he kept running once he scrambled to his feet. Katsuki dodged people begging for help, dodged the people that were attacking everyone, till he got to his house. He ran inside and slammed the door behind him. His back pressed up against the door as he panted and then bolted for his room.

Then he heard the groan.

What the hell was that? Was that one of his parents? But what did he care, his mother was abusive and his father didn’t do shit to stop her. Katsuki grabbed the throwing knives he kept in his room, a hobby that would hopefully become useful now. He slowed his breathing till he was calm again and he grabbed his doorhandle, opening the door and poking his head out. He looked down the hall and saw the back of his father’s head, his body was bent at an odd angle. Katsuki tensed and looked around before he aimed and threw a knife at his head. It sunk into his skull and his body fell to the floor with a thud. Then he shut his door again. He heard a groan from downstairs. Katsuki heard what he only thought could be his mother stumble up the stairs to find the source of the sound. He clutched a knife in his hand and waited till the groans passed his door. Then opening it and throwing a knife at her as well, it missed. But it got her attention. And she ran at him. Katsuki ran back into his room, dropping the knives and fell back onto the ground. She pounced at him and he grabbed her throat and discharged explosions against her. That making her neck explode. Katsuki closed his eyes and mouth as it did. He shoved her off and stood, smashing his foot down onto her head and hearing the crunch of bones. He kept kicking until he opened his eyes again and looked down. Then snapping his head back up.Then snapping his head back up so he wouldn’t be looking at the bloody scene before him.

After that, he cleaned the blood off of him, stripped out of the bloodied clothes and cleaned himself off, then grabbing the knife from the back of his father’s head and washing it off. Katsuki went to his room, covered the gross scene of his mothers head with a blanket and getting dressed. He put on a pair of black skinny jeans that were somewhat stretchy. Easy to run in. Then pulling on a fairly tight black long sleeve shirt with the sleeves being orange. He tucked it into his pants and put on a belt. Katsuki pulled on the combat boots he had and started shoving things into a bag. He shoved in an extra changes of clothes, then medical supplies and food. He put his knives into their little holster and put that on his belt. Katsuki grabbed a green bandana he had lying around and tied it around his neck, then pulling it over his nose.

Katsuki pulled out his phone, it still had service thank fuck. He called Eijirou, his boyfriend. “Cmon pick the fuck up...cmon...” When he answered Katsuki sighed in relief and said he was gonna come get him. He ate quickly before he left to get Eijirou. Katsuki went into the garage after finding his dad’s keys and put his bag in the car, then putting more food in the car, who knows when he would find food after people started looting. Katsuki got in, and hesitated for a moment, he had only ever driven with his father before. But he drove anyways, picked up his boyfriend and they stayed together as much as they could, Katsuki didn’t want to be alone, he didn’t want to be without him. But while on a run about half a year into this shit, they got trapped. A horde was after them and they couldn’t do much. They got separated and Katsuki was devastated. Eijirou was gone, probably dead, and he was shit at handling it.

That was a year and a half ago. Katsuki was now running across a rooftop, jumping to the next as he watched someone run from a horde. He had first seen the person running from the rooftop he was standing on, looking at the city and planning where to go next, he needed to find more food and then get somewhere he could live out the rest of his life. He panted as he ran, it was cold as hell. He wore black jeans, hunter green combat boots, a longsleeve shirt tucked into his jeans, and on top of that a winter jacket with fur lining the hood. As well as the same bandana from two years ago pulled over his nose. Katsuki had a bag on his back, the straps pulled tight, and had a gun in hand as he ran. Eventually he made it to a fire escape and ran down it as quick as possible, getting into the alley and running towards the exit to meet the person in the street. What he didn’t expect was to run right into the person and get knocked back a little.

.....

Eijirou had just been getting out of the bath when he noticed his parents weren't back yet. Strange... They were just going to the store, it shouldn't have taken them this long. Oh well, probably just... Traffic...? Was that... Screaming? Hurrying over to his window, he regrets it almost instantly. He found his parents... The last of his mother's screams died down. The neighbors he'd know all his life now busy ripping bites out of his now still and silent parents. Instinct took over then and his training had kicked in.

He sprinted through the house to make sure every door and window was locked. Once that was done he grabbed the largest backpack in the house and stuffed it full of as many nonperishable things as he could. A first aid kit followed and a Swiss army knife, then he was getting dressed. From start to finish, he fought the urge to throw up. Then his phone went off and he was scrambling to pick up.

"Bakugou! You're okay! I-I'm fine! I... M-my parents... Huh? Okay, I'll stay put. See you soon." He started calling friend after friend and later regretted it. Some he heard die over the phone line, others were okay, but he saw none of them again. Bakugou made it to his house safely at least and after stashing the last of the food in his house and anything else useful into the car, they left to start their new life. It was a living nightmare... But at least they had each other.

About that... It seemed the universe wasn't done with them yet. After a year of carving out a hard existence together, they were suddenly forced apart. There were just so many and they had no choice but to split up with the promise to meet at a designated location. From Bakugou's perspective, Kirishima never showed up. In truth he had, but it had taken far too long and Bakugou couldn't wait forever. He didn't give up. Surely, Bakugou was okay! He just had to keep searching for him, that's all! They were in the same general area, right? R-right...?

It had been 7 months since then. Alive or dead, Kirishima didn't expect to see his boyfriend again. Losing him had been devastating, but he needed to keep going. He would never find Katsuki if he was dead and he knew his boyfriend would have wanted him to keep going. It was a small comfort... Things were much harder on his own, Bakugou having been the more intelligent and clever of the two of them. If he had to go to toe to toe with zombies, he was good, but finding a defendable place to sleep? Finding food and water? Medical supplies? No... Kirishima wasn't so good at that part.

That shortcoming was what landed him in the current mess he was in. He'd grown thin and was getting weaker by the day. He'd heard of a clan that was holed up in the area. A nasty bunch, but successful in this nightmare world. He approached them and begged to join them. They accepted him, but the price was high. It was a price he had to pay every night he remained there. A month later and he couldn't stand it any longer. He stole what food he could carry and fled. The price was so much higher than he thought it was...

Now, 4 months later he was in serious trouble. He couldn't get enough food. He couldn't deny it anymore, you don't gain weight when you're starving. It had been a very hard pill to swallow and had resulted in several nights of crying himself to sleep. As if things weren't hard enough, he'd managed to find food. Finally. But there was a reason such a large stash was left behind. He fought his was through a hoard just to get to it, stuffing his tattered backpack to bursting. Now to get back out...

He managed, but at this point he was exhausted and they just kept coming! I'm the end, he was forced to run as he was afraid his stamina wouldn't last. What he hadn't expected was to slam into someone along the way. Poor guy... That must have been like running into a wall. It seemed that all that hero training was still in there too. Without hesitation he had the guy by the arm both to keep him on his feet and get him moving.

"Run! Don't stop!" He urged, sounding like he was about to drop, but to his credit he wasn't slowing down. The boy Katsuki found himself running with was almost unrecognizable. He was a little taller for one, but he was thinner now. His features were softer and prettier, his hips curvier. That wasn't even mentioning the long hair, half black and half red, tied back in a braid.

.....

Katsuki was so relieved when Eijirou picked up, he was safe and alive. Thank fucking god, if he was gone he wouldn’t know what to do. Katsuki would probably go crazy. He didn’t bother calling anyone else, he only cared about his boyfriend right now. He needed him safe with him and in the damn car. Their life was a mess, but they were together and they could be in each others arms at night so it made him feel safer. They could protect eachother and then at night, cuddle and feel safe together. As long as they were together.

When they were forced apart, he didn’t handle it well. But he stayed at the place they designated to meet up for three months. It was three months of hell, barely sleeping, and just waiting. The days felt endless, nights blended into the days. He didn’t feel safe when he slept, not anymore. Three months of waiting, before he finally thought, Eijirou was gone. He was dead, he’d never see his boyfriend again. That night when he fully processed it, he sobbed and got upset. He got so upset to the point that his stomach got upset and he threw up a few times, still crying.

7 months later, he was barely surviving. Physically he was fine, but his mental state had gone to shit without Eijirou to make him smile and laugh and feel happy. He just went day by day, surviving. He new Eijirou would want him to. So he survived and stayed safe. Katsuki didn’t mess with the clans, they were full of shitty people. And he did fine on his own, he knew how to forage, hunt, find food and make water safe to drink, and make makeshift medical supplies if he needed to. And when need be, he could climb a tree, sit on a high branch, and tie himself to it so he wouldn’t fall over in his sleep.

He found a new car after the last one had been abandoned by him and Eijirou what felt like forever ago. It was a van with only four seats in it, the rest open. So he made that van his home. He found a smallish mattress that he fit into the back of the van and made it a mobile home. Katsuki stayed in the same area most of the time, but occasionally ventured elsewhere to find food. But soon, the places he could loot ran out, so he ventured further. He found what has he could and started driving. Katsuki listened to the same cd every day, a corny stupid mixtape Eijirou had made for him before all this crap. He held onto it and listening to the songs as he drove made him smile a bit, occasionally he would pull of to the side of the road and cry. And just wished he could hold Eijirou again.

That past four months were hellish, he still had his van, but he didn’t want to keep driving around all the time. So he stopped for a while and explored a city, being careful of the hordes in the city. He looted and found food and supplies and things that were useful.

When he slammed into another person it was like a wall running into a wall, Katsuki grunted and when he looked at the person for a moment, he was surprised to see someone else alive. When he was grabbed he started running with the other person. He made the person let go of his arm and he grabbed the strangers arm instead and ducked into another alley. Katsuki ran in the direction of his van. His other arm pumped at his side as he bolted for the car. Though he stopped when he saw more zombies and cursed. Then turning again to run another way, hoping it wouldn’t make him lost.

When he got a look at the person with him, the person was tall, thin, very pretty and had soft features. Katsuki turned another corner and his hood came off, but the bandana remained over his mouth. He could find out who the hell this was later. Katsuki pulled the person closer again when a zombie got too close. He reached over and blew up the zombie, then beelining for the van when he saw it in the distance.

.....

The guy yanked his arm away and the brunette didn't try to catch it again. As much as he ached to protect people, he'd slowly learned that in this world one couldn't always do so. What he hadn't expected was to be grabbed instead and yanked in a different direction. He didn't resist, running with him as he seemed to have a destination in mind which was a lot better than Kirishima's aimless running. He was tired but forced himself to keep pace. He could rest when he wasn't at risk of being eaten. Hell of a motivator that was.

When the hood fell back so he could see a little more of the guy he was now fleeing with, his heart ached. He recognized that shade of blonde instantly and it hurt so much. How he missed his boy... Friend... No... No, it couldn't be. That bandana was the same too. But it had been so long, surely he couldn't still have it! It was a hell of a coincidence, but that had to be it. This couldn't possibly be---No. Not now. Now was not the time to have a freakout, regardless of the reason. Safety first. Then he could have his breakdown. Or more correctly, then he would find out if this guy was just going to try to mug him for his food now that he was weakened. He really hoped not...

A van! Holy shit this dude had a functioning van?! That was a rarity, particularly as gas was almost impossible to find nowadays. He wondered if he'd substituted the fuel with something else. Not the time to worry about that! He tensed as a zombie got too close, the numbness that came with his quirk traveling up his arm as it hardened, his fingertips growing long, sharp claws and then the zombie was literally blown away. He dropped his quirk in shock, almost tripping as he ran. An explosion quirk. From his hands. An ash blonde guy with red eyes, a green bandana, and an explosion quirk. Tears welled up in his eyes and quickly started to trickle freely down his cheeks, but he couldn't stop now, not till they were safe in the van. Still, he was sure now and it gave him the boost of energy he needed to keep going.

"Heading for that van right? I'm with you!" He assured as he pulled himself free so that they had both their arms to work with. He smirked, baring sharp teeth as his entire body hardened, skin splitting into that familiar craggy texture as he surged forward, taking the lead like he used to when they ran together at the start. His quirk allowed him to safely be a distraction so that while he took down a few within reach, Bakugou could take out the rest that were focused on him. "You can't hurt me! Let loose, I'll be fine!"

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Katsuki stared forward as he ran, not glancing at the person, just staring at the van. But he listened for if any zombies got too close. He always kept the same bandana, Eijirou gave it to him a long time ago, the dumbass wore one sometimes around his forehead. And at one point he wanted Katsuki to wear one as well, so Eijirou got him one. He never wanted to loose what his boyfriend gave him. Er...ex...boyfriend. If he was dead now he couldn’t very well be his boyfriend. Katsuki had to focus right now, focus on saving this person, they looked so weak. And Katsuki felt obligated to help, plus the red part of their hair made him think of Eijirou and he...he felt responsible.

He wished he was smart enough to know how to substitute fuel for something else, to change something in the engine. But now he just found as much gas as he could. Whenever he found it, he would put it in some kind of container and stick it in the back of his van. It had a part where the floor could lift up so that’s where he shoved the gas. When he saw the persons quirk activate, it looked kind of like Eijirous. But that had to be a coincidence. He stared at the person for a moment and just stared at them as he ran for a moment, it couldn’t be, right? Eijirou was dead, this persons face was softer and more feminine than his boyfriends. Katsuki noticed how he started to cry, that worried him a little. Why the hell was his guy crying?

When he heard the voice, it sounded so much like Eijirous, just a little different in pitch. When he pulled his arm from Katsukis, then watched as he smirked and his body hardened. Katsuki stopped dead in his tracks, this was Eijirou. A hand came over his mouth, well, bandana covered mouth. And he felt tears fall down his cheeks. Katsuki found him, he was alive. His boyfriend was alive. He wanted to tackle him and hug him and kiss him more than anything right now, but he was suddenly pulled back to reality when he heard a zombie close to him.

Katsuki reached out and blew the zombie away with his quirk. He nodded a little and turned around, holding up his arms. “Alright shitty hair, fucking prepare yourself then.” Katsuki made one hand into a circle shape, and placed it on his other palm. He hadn’t used his AP shot in what felt like fucking forever. So he knew his hands would ache after this. But it would take out a bunch of the zombies at once. Katsuki activated his quirk and it built up for a moment before a beam of the explosions shot at the zombies, he slowly moved his hand to change the direction of it. Once he took out some of them, he had to stop his quirk. He turned around and then grabbed Eijirous arm, running for the van. He pulled out his keys, fumbled for a moment, and unlocked it. He pulled open the back door, shoved Eijirou in, he didn’t have time to run around to the passenger side. He slammed he door shut and got into the driver seat. Katsuki put the key in the ignition and started the car. “Hold the hell on.” He said and buckled himself, then speeding off so fast that the tires screeched.

.....

He'd never been so happy to have his hair insulted. He was happy enough in fact that a sound left him, somewhere between a laugh and a sob. Not yet! Just a little longer. Keep it together for just a little longer then you can hold your boyfriend and you can cry like idiots together. He noticed a very particular gesture and looked over, eyes widening. Oh, no, no, no! THAT could hurt him! He hardened further his softer tissues like his eyelids, lips and gums withdrawing as he pushed his hardening to it's limit. Now he would be fine. Seems Bakugou took him saying to let loose very seriously.

Now safe from friendly fire, they fought together just like they used to 2 years ago. Fuck... It felt like another lifetime... When their chance came, they booked it for the van and Kirishima needed little encouragement to scramble across the driver's seat to the passenger side. While he waited the brief time it would take for the blond to join him, he took his backpack off and stuffed it into the foot well. The next moment he was yanking the seatbelt across and clicking it into place. The tires screeched and they were off!

"Safe... We're safe now..." He murmured and for Bakugou he likely assumed that the words were for him. They were in part, but the brunette's hand was running soothingly over the small swell of his belly. He was only just starting to get a noticeable curve to his tummy so it was still very hard to tell he was pregnant unless you knew what to look for. Despite how he'd gotten pregnant however and despite how upset he was by the fact he /could/ get pregnant, he didn't blame the tiny being growing inside of him. In fact, he loved them already and would do everything he could to keep them safe and happy when they were ready to join them in this terrible world.

It was then he finally broke down, sobbing even as he smiled hard enough to hurt. "Katsuki... Fuck... I thought you were dead! I... I've missed you so, SO much! I love you! I still love you, babe... I never stopped! I lived for you... Even after I thought you were dead, even after I was sure you must be, I lived for you. I did everything I had to, to keep going... I... Fuck, I hope you can forgive me..." And then his broken, words faultered and he could do nothing more than sob. They would eat together for the first time soon. And hold each other and kiss and make love and live for one another like they always had before. He would feel safe and truly happy for the first time since they parted.

.....

That laugh/sob made him snort and smile, it was cute. He missed Eijirou so damn much. But he had to wait a bit to let him know. Right now he had to take out zombies. He could hold Eijirou and kiss him and love him after this. After he drove them away from here and got his boyfriend safe. Once he noticed Eijirous body was fully hardened, he released the shot and there was absolute destruction. Katsuki destroyed the zombies, part of them, and part of a building. Now his hands and wrists hurt like hell and he probably wouldn’t be able to use his quirk too much. Doing that took a hell of a lot out of him.

Fighting with him felt as great as it did two years ago. It made him grin and want to fight harder. But they had to get the hell outta here, so he dashed off with Eijirou. He shoved his boyfriend into the car and didn’t even wait till he was fully across to the passenger seat to get in and start the car. He didn’t even bother with his own backpack, he just buckled himself in and started driving, slamming his foot on the gas and speeding off. Katsuki didn’t slow down, he just kept driving, the speed kept climbing as he drove. He just kept his foot on the gas, speeding out of the city and down the highway.

Katsuki didn’t even hear anything as Eijirou murmured to himself, he was just so focused right now on driving. He didn’t notice Eijirou speak and run his hand over his belly. He just wanted to get his boyfriend safe, he just got him back and he never wanted to loose him again. He’d notice his belly being swollen later, probably when he got to hug Eijirou again or just touch him in general. He’d want to run his hands over his body and touch every part of him just to make sure he was actually there and not fake. Once he would find out about the pregnancy, he’d be confused, wondering if Eijirou moved on. Did he find someone else and get pregnant? Did he even care about Katsuki anymore? He’d ask a million questions, but he’d still be in love with Eijirou regardless of his answers.

When he heard his name, he practically slammed on the breaks, but knew they could both get hurt like that, so he slowed a bit, then slammed on the brakes. Katsuki scrambled to unbuckle himself and then pulled off his bag. He threw it into the backseat and leaned over, hugging Eijirou. “Shut up...don’t talk, just...let me fucking hug you.” He nuzzled his face against Eijirous neck and smiled widely, he was already sobbing the moment he hugged Eijirou. “Why the hell would I need to forgive you? Ei...My Ei...” He pulled back and cupped his face in his hands, smiling. “You’re alive, and you still love me. God I fucking love you so much Ei.” Katsuki leaned forward and kissed him, a wide grin on his face as he did. Then pulling back to talk, but he kissed him between some of the words. “I lived...for you too...Eijirou...I didn’t stop...loving...you...ever.” Katsuki kissed him deeply and smiled.

.....

The stopped rather suddenly and then Bakugou was scrambling to free himself off seatbelt and backpack. The order was well received and he didn't keep babbling, unbuckling himself so he could half crawl out of his seat to finally nestle himself in the arms he thought he would never feel again. There he allowed himself to sob, clining like he was afraid the boyfriend would vanish in a puff of smoke if he didn't hold on tight enough.

He nuzzled his boyfriend's shoulder, a trembling hand petting ash blonde hair. "Yours... All yours... I'm so sorry... I thought you were dead... I... I would have never cheated on you if I'd known... I'm so sorry... Please forgive me, I-I was just so hungry... I'm sorry... I love you! I love you so... Please... Please don't leave me... Please... I can't... I can't survive without you, I've barely been..." His renewed babbling slowly quieted as he was kissed, the tension both good and bad slowly leaving him. In time, only desperate and happy little whimpers left him as they kissed time and again. So it seemed some things had happened while they were separated. The phrasing was concerning however. At least it suggested that Bakugou didn't have competition.

Happy tears trickled freely down his cheeks as his hands wandered already desperate to relearn every dip and curve of his love's body. He wanted to touch him, taste him, feel him like he used to. He craved the familiarity, needed his long lost pillar of strength like he needed to breathe. When he spoke again, it was right up against his lover's lips, not willing to part just yet. "When we're settled for the night, when we're safe, I want to make love... I want to be one with you and only you again. Please... I want to only remember you... No one else..." The way his voice cracked, the desperation there... There was something wrong and whatever it was, it sounded traumatic.

.....

When he felt Eijirou move into his arms, he smiled and hugged him tighter, nuzzling him and inhaling. He missed Eijirous scent so much. He was terrified he would disappear if he let go, that he would just be an illusion. Katsukis grieving mind making something up. But Eijirou was here, he was real. He was alive. Katsuki rubbed his back as they both cried, nuzzling against him and shoulders shaking as he sobbed against his neck.

The moment he said he cheated, he pulled back and just looked at him. He...he did move on. Eijirou moved on, of course he did. He probably had a new boyfriend now. And here Katsuki was, touching him like he was still his. But as he kept talking, he realized, Eijirou must have joined one of the groups and been with one of them so he could stay with them. His frown deepened and he hugged him tightly again and started kissing him. Eijirou was still his, this was still his boyfriend. His amazing boyfriend who he loved with every part of his being. Katsuki just wanted to see his smile again and touch him again. To make sure Eijirou only knew the feeling of his hands on him rather than some other man.

Katsuki wiped at the tears as he leaned into Eijirous hands, he kissed that feeling. He missed it so damn much, he wanted to feel him again. He wanted to touch him all over and kiss every inch of his skin. He wanted to be able to sleep again, to get good restful sleep. When he spoke, their lips still together, he nodded a little. Katsuki despised the idea of someone else touching Eijirou, he hated that. Someone else making love with him. It made Katsuki feel sick. The way his voice cracked and he sounded so...broken. It made him want to kill whoever hurt Eijirou. “Cmon...for now, you should eat and change. Then we can just sit together for a little bit, but after we should get somewhere safer than my van. I still have one of your bandanas if you want it, it was in my bag when we got separated. For clothes, you can wear my spare clothes.” Katsuki kissed him again and got back into his seat, driving off to the side of the road and then turning off the van. He got out and then got into the back seat. He put his bag down on the other seat and climbed back and onto the bed in the back.

.....

Bakugou clung right back and he couldn't be happier in that moment. Together they sobbed, sharing the joy of knowing they were alive and reunited while mourning their time apart. Desperately they shared everything they were feeling through touch alone, something Eijirou missed terribly. Sometimes, you didn't need words to communicate and that was something he'd only ever gotten to experience with Katsuki.

Bakugou took a moment, but put together correctly that he'd joined a group to survive, but that was about all he guy right. Not that there was any way for him to know. All the same, Kirishima saying he had cheated, was little more than him taking responsibility for something he shouldn't. You can't cheat on the dead, nor was there a relationship to begin with. Still, he was eaten alive by guilt all the same, particularly with how upset the blonde looked. In the end, it seemed like he was forgiven and he clung all over again and was right back to sobbing. Katsuki was so good to him... His words soothed him as well as his touch and he nodded. Changing sounded nice as did a rest. Ugh what he would GIVE for a bath...

He grabbed his pack and followed after his boyfriend, sighing happily as he looked inside as if the gates of heaven had opened up before him. A bed. A /real/ bed. Not just a bunch of relatively soft things in a pile. A bed! Climbing inside, he set his pack down again and hesitated. "I... Don't think your clothes would fit me anymore..." This was Katsuki. He could be trusted. Everything was fine. He opened his pack, taking out some of the food so he could pull a clean(er) set of clothes out. He pulled off his shirt to reveal a set of small breasts he didn't have before which looked a little odd sitting atop toned pectorals. He tried not to think about the changes to his body and those weren't the only ones. As he got out of his boots and pants, he revealed a set of hips wider than Bakugou had ever seen them. That would explain why the couldn't share clothes... Also different was the gentle swell of his belly. It wasn't big, but with as skinny as he'd gotten, it looked out of place.

He shivered a bit in the cold as he started to dress himself again, too ashamed to look at his boyfriend. He would have to tell him eventually, but he just couldn't bring himself to do so. Just not brave enough for it yet. Once he was dressed and warm he started to sort the hastily packed food. "What do you want to eat?" Because of course he would share with him without hesitation.

.....

He sobbed against him, nuzzling against his neck and breathing in his scent. He kissed it so much. Katsuki pulled back to wipe at his tears a little, smiling at Eijirou. Then wiping at his boyfriends tears and kissing him again. He kissed all over his face and then pulled back to just look at him, smiling. He couldn’t believe he was here, he could touch him again and hold him and kiss him. Katsuki could love him again, give him every ounce of love he had to give. He missed the comfortable silence between them. He missed just looking at Eijiro and knowing how he was feeling just from the look in his eyes.

Katsuki hated that someone touched Eijirou in the ways he did. He hated that someone else got to be with him. But he hated even more that he didn’t wait longer for him. If he only had...they wouldn’t have been apart so long, Eijirou wouldn’t have thought he was dead. He wouldn’t have been with someone else. He was so broken up about it deep down and knew he would end up crying about it later. He’d eventually ask more about it, he’d want to know everything. But right now he wanted to be with Eijirou. He kissed him softly before moving into the back. “Let’s never get separated again...”

When he saw the look on his face at seeing the bed, he smiled. “Yup, a real bed. Complete with pillows and blankets.” Then he frowned a little, why wouldn’t they? They used to fit him. Eijirou had worn them to bed before, and just all the time before the apocalypse. He frowned as he watched him take things out, eventually clothes. Then watching him pull off his shirt, his eyes widened. Being off T effected him more than Katsuki thought it would have. He frowned a little and worried, how was Eijirou feeling about himself now? Did he start hating his body again? His hips got wider too... “Well you can still wear one of my jackets if you want, they smell like me and I know that used to comfort you...” Katsuki stared at his hips and then back up his body. He worried about Eijirou, how was he really feeling? Then he noticed the swell of his belly. “Ei...are you okay?” He asked and shifted closer to him. He looked at his belly and gently placed his hand over it. “What happened?”

Then pulling away as he dressed himself. He just sort of looked at him worriedly, how could Eijirou think about food right now? What if he had internal bleeding or bruising and that’s why his stomach was swelled. Pregnancy wasn’t even crossing his mind. Katsuki put his hand on Eijirous for a moment. “Wait...just... let me hold you for a minute, please Ei. Lay with me for a few minutes, I want to hold you.” He shifted back a bit to lay down on the bed, leaning back on his elbows to look at his boyfriend.

....

He was held so nicely and kissed time and time again. So many wonderful kisses all over! It was like his boyfriend was trying to map him out again using only just lips! Kirishima very much liked the idea of that. He couldn't wait to familiarize myself with the blonde again. The bitter sweet tears continued to come for them both, Katsuki taking it upon himself to try and we them all away. Oh and the way he would just /look/ at him! There was so much love in his eyes... It was clear his feelings hadn't faded in the least after all this time.

Kirishima was no different, looking into his love's eyes adoringly every time he got the chance. It would be just them again and he couldn't be happier. Sure, it was harder to survive out here without the security of a clan, but he had faith that they would do just fine like they had before. Just him and his beautiful bombshell blonde. Katsuki was just as gorgeous as he remembered and now he could look at him any time he wanted. "Yeah... I don't know if I could survive it here without you again. I promise I would do my best, but... I don't ever want to be without you again."

Bakugou watched as he changed and he had mixed feelings about it. He loved that Bakugou was looking at him, but his lover's worry wasn't misplaced. He'd already felt uncomfortable with the changes that had come about and now they were even more pronounced. He looked up when spoken to and smiled with a desperate little nod. "You can have my jacket too!" But then, observant as always, Katsuki noticed. A gentle hand came to rest on his tummy and his throat grew tight, tears springing to his eyes as he covered his mouth with his hands. He shook his head, unable to speak when directly asked. He knew he should, that waiting longer was probably worse, but he just couldn't.

Thankfully, Katsuki didn't push. He backed off and changed, the brunette sniffling softly as he watched. He needed to keep it together. They had survived so much together. They would survive this. He was sure of it. Despite that, it was still so scary when thinking about telling his love what had happened to him while they were apart. In an attempt to play off how upset he felt, he sorted food, but it was a bit late to act normal. He blinked those pretty, teary eyes as his hand was touched, whimpering as he nodded his agreement.

He needed this right now. Just... So much... He crawled over, snuggling right up to the blonde. He hid his face in the crook of Bakugou's neck whimpering softly as he pressed kiss after sweet kiss against his skin. "I love you... I love you so much... I'll tell you everything you want to know, I promise, just... Give me a minute, okay? I'm really scared... I don't want you to be mad... I want us to be happy..." Us had so much more meaning than Bakugou could guess just yet...

.....

Katsuki never wanted to stop kissing him, he wanted to kiss all over his body again and familiarize himself with every inch again. He uses to know Eijirous body so well, each part of him that he loved to be touched on more than others. But overtime, not having Eijirou at his side, it started slipping his mind. He wanted to familiarize himself with every inch of his body, to touch all over him and kiss and never let him out of his sight ever again. His feelings never changed, he loved Eijirou with every part of his being, he loved everything about him.

He loved being able to look into his eyes again, to see the love in them again. Katsukis eyes weren’t cold anymore, once he realized this was Eijirou, the warmth and happiness returned. He was so glad to have someone with him, to have his love with him. Katsuki missed him so damn much. He knew that they would be fine, it would be hard to take care of eachother sometimes, but they’d get through it together. He’d do everything he could to protect him. Eijirou was every bit as handsome as he remembered, though his hair was kinda long and mostly black, he loved him regardless. “I don’t want to be without you again Ei...you were my everything. And you still are.”

He worried like hell about Eijirou, seeing his body. He worried for his mental health, what did he think of himself, what did he do to cope with this? Katsuki wanted to know what happened while they were separated. He wanted to know everything. He grabbed his jacket from hanging over the back of one of the backseats and set it down next to Eijirou. “It’s a bit big on me so it’ll be even bigger on you.” He rubbed his thumb against his belly, wondering what happened. But then just watched as he shook his head, and he frowned. He ran his hand over his belly again and then looked at him.

Katsuki just nodded a little and took his hand off of him. Waiting till he got dressed again. He worried like hell about him, what happened to him? Why was his stomach swollen like that? Katsuki worried, but they’d get through this. Everything would be okay because they’re together and that makes things better. He knew Eijirou would talk to him when he was ready. Katsuki rubbed his thumb against his hand and when he nodded he held his arms out towards him.

The moment he was snuggled up to, he laid down and pulled a blanket over them both. He wrapped his arms around Eijirou and pulled him close. The kisses to his neck made him smile and blush a little. It felt nice to have his lips on his skin again. “I love you too...” He nodded a little, he’d give Eijirou as much time as he needed. “You don’t have to be scared...I won’t be mad. We are gonna be happy now, we’re together now. Nothing is gonna tear us apart ever again. I’m not loosing you again.” He kissed Eijirou softly and ran his hand through his hair.

.....

Bakugou still loved him. Everything told him this was true and he needed it so bad. Sure enough he hated his body, hated how he looked like a muscular girl, hated how he couldn't dye his hair anymore, hated that he could get pregnant even if he didn't hold any spite for the baby themselves, hated that he wasn't the same boy that Bakugou had been forced to part with a year ago. Despite all these horrible things he was having to deal with, despite all the changes, Bakugou loved him.

Would he still love him even if he knew that he was pregnant? It was important he tell him sooner rather than later, but what if he was upset that it had happened? Supplies were limited as it was and Kirishima needed to consume more than he used to just to feed the two of them. What's more, it wouldn't take too long for him to start having physical limitations. This wasn't even considering how he'd be pretty much useless towards the end and they would be forced to stay in one place for an extended amount of time.

Even more terrifying was the thought that Bakugou would be upset that it wasn't his. There's little he wouldn't give for the baby to have been Bakugou's but it wasn't something that could be helped now. What would he say when he found out? Would he reject the baby? Would he reject Eijirou if he refused to get rid of it? No... Surely not. He wasn't sure how the blond might react, but he couldn't be that cruel! Not with how gently he was touching his tummy. There was too much love there, even if it wasn't directed to the little one growing inside of him.

He took the jacket when it was offered to him and gently laid out his own for Bakugou should he want it. Despite having been apart for a year, he'd purposely took a jacket that would fit his lover. It was habitual at this point and he just didn't feel comfortable wearing on that fit him properly so it would actually fit his boyfriend. He put on his boyfriend's jacket and wasn't at all shy about hugging it around himself, nuzzling into the collar and breathing in deep. How he'd missed him... So very much...

The jacket was very nice, but snuggling up with Bakugou himself was so much better. They shared their warmth, shared kisses and touches they had gone without for far too long. Bakugou assured him that he loved him, that he wouldn't leave, that nothing could break them apart. It soothed a lot of his worries, but at the same time, the blonde didn't know what he was promising to be okay with. The brunette took a deep, calming breath as they kissed before reluctantly pulling back and pushing himself up onto his elbow to look down at his lover. He hesitated again when he found himself facing what may or may not be the end of their relationship.

This was unavoidable however, he had to tell him. If he didn't, it might be worse as he could be accused of hiding something so important from him. He gulped, reaching out to take one of the blonde's hands and bringing it to gently rest on the swell of his stomach, pointedly pushing up his shirt a little so that he could touch skin to skin. He looked into those beautiful ruby eyes he'd missed so very much only to lose his nerve and look away. All the same, he forced himself to speak. "Katsuki... I..." Come on... Say it. He needs to know. "I'm..." Just say it!

"When we were separated, I didn't do well on my own. I tried my best, but I was starving. I heard there was a clan near where I was and out of desperation, I went to find them. I begged them to let me join them. They agreed, but... I had to agree to... T-to... Make myself 'available'. To their leader and his lieutenants. There were four of them. There wasn't a single night that at least one of them wouldn't show up in my bed... I was there for a month before I couldn't take it anymore. Stole what food I could carry and fled. It was too late though... I... Fuck... K-Katsuki, I... I'm pregnant..." He closed his eyes as tears welled up in them and started to freely trickle down his cheeks. "I don't even know which one of them... I... I'm sorry... Please don't hate me... O-or them! They did nothing wrong!" He squeezed the hand on his belly to make it clear who he meant by 'them'.

.....

He didn’t hate Eijirou for changes to his body that were out of his control. He still loved every part of him. To Katsuki, this was the same boy he loved when they were separated. His hair and body were different, but it was the same person. His boyfriend, his love, the man he cared about. Katsuki didn’t care about anything else, just Eijirou. He cared that he got to touch him and hold him again. He got to call him, his, again. And that was all he wanted. Katsuki would always love Eijirou, no matter what changed about him, he’d adore him.

When he’d find out, he’d find a home for them. He’d stock up on food for them and supplies and find baby books and learn how to deliver a baby. He’d make it safe for them, build a fence, he’d protect Eijirou. He’d protect his child. He wouldn’t care if the kid was biologically his or not, it was his fucking kid. He and Eijirou could have another and it would biologically be Katsukis, but he’d love them both the same. He’d want to give his boyfriend, probably husband at that point, and kid or kids, all of his love. Katsuki would find them a home, and everything would be good.

Katsuki would never reject Eijirou, or the baby. He’d probably be upset at first and feel angry that he wasn’t the biological father. But he’d get over his stupid anger and love the kid and Eijirou. He’d never ask Eijirou to get rid of the baby, but if Eijirou wanted to, he wouldn’t stop him. Katsuki loved him, more than life itself, he could never hate him. He never wanted to see him cry or be upset.

When Eijirou laid his jacket out, Katsuki took it and put it on before he laid down. He pulled it over his nose and inhaled, it smelt like Eijirou, it made him calm. He loved that he could fit into it, like Eijirou did it on purpose, getting one that would fit Katsuki. He didn’t know that he actually did do it on purpose. Katsuki smiled when he watched his boyfriend hug it around himself and nuzzle into the collar. It was cute and made Katsukis heart melt. His heart clenched and he put his hand against his chest.

He snuggled up to him and kissed him, kissing all over his face and then his lips. He smiled into the kisses and touched his body, rubbing his hand through his hair and against his back. He missed being touched by Eijirou. Nothing would ever break them apart again, they’d never be apart. Katsuki wouldn’t let Eijirou leave his side ever again. When he pushed himself up and looked at Katsuki, he raised an eyebrow. What the hell was going on? What was he sitting up like that for?

When his hand was put on his belly, he raised an eyebrow and rubbed his thumb over his belly. He just kinda stared for a moment and then looked at Eijirou. What was wrong with his belly? Did it hurt? Did he want Katsuki to rub it? He frowned a little and rubbed his hand against his belly, then looking at Eijirou when he said his name and stalled his talking.

He nodded a little at first, saying he had joined a clan. Okay, what’s the big deal about that? Then he kept talking and his expression fell. His hand that wasn’t on his belly clenched into a fist and he frowned deeply. So Eijirou has to whore himself out to be protected. For a month he had to deal with that, and now Katsuki realized why his belly was swelled and why he was so nervous. He was pregnant. Katsukis expression softened and he rubbed his hand against his belly. Katsuki was pissed, kinda wanted to find those guys and blow them up. But Eijirou needed him, but he was still pissed off. He sat up and put his hand on his cheek, wiping away his tears and biting his lip. “Eiji...” Then he shifted down to be level with his belly. Katsuki gently kissed his belly and looked at Eijirou. “I don’t hate you...or the baby.” He looked up at him and kissed his belly again, rubbing his hands against him. “I love you...I love you both, you and our kid.”

.....

Bakugou quietly listened, to everything he had to say and he was terrified as his expression changed the further he got in. The blonde was angry, that much was obvious. Despite this, the hand at his tummy was still gentle and only the other hand balled up. He wasn't angry at him for having slept with all those people, just at the fact he was forced into the situation to start with. It was directed at the clan not him. Good... Good start. Sadly that's not even the hardest part he had to put out there. Out of fear, he revealed his pregnant state and squeezed his eyes shut right after, heart hammering as the tears flowed. He missed how his boyfriend's expression had softened upon finding out the source of all this fearfulness.

It was hard to blame him, considering how hard their future would be because of his 'condition'. Short of finding someone with a quirk that could somehow help, he was too far along to safely abort the baby in a way that wasn't particularly violent. He didn't have long to wait in his small moment of panic as the hand on the gentle swell of his stomach moved not to hurt, but to soothingly rub. His eyes blinked open in meek hope that he wouldn't find anger or disgust staring back at him, but he found none. Instead, there was a hand at his cheek to help wipe away his tears and nothing but love in his lover's eyes. He wasn't being rejected. Bakugou still loved him, still wanted him.

If that realization weren't enough, the teen leaned down and started to kiss and rub at his swollen tummy. The brunette bit his lower lip as new tears started to flow, thankfully these of the much happier variety. Fuck, he didn't used to cry this much! Between emotions running high and his hormones being completely out of wack because of his pregnancy, he couldn't seem to help himself. He finally allowed himself to lay back down, covering half his face in embarrassment as he started to sob, smiling all the while. Bakugou didn't just not reject the babe or hold any spite towards them. He wasn't even just tolerating the little thing growing in him for Eijirou's sake. He was outright claiming the baby as his own.

All the worry, all the fear, it all left him. All of it drained away and he finally relaxed completely and laughed through his sobs as he struggled to get them under control. "You're so good... You're so good to me... I don't know what I ever did to deserve you, but... I love you so much! Thank you... Thank you for loving me. F-for loving /us/! I didn't even know what I was going to do if you didn't want one or both of us. F-fuck... I love you so, SO much! I'll do my best to keep up, I won't be a burden!" The last bit was a half lie, though he didn't mean for it to be. Common sense dictated that he might be able to keep up and hold his own for now, but he was already 4 months along. He was already at a point where he needed to start being careful with how much exercise he got and what kind, but any zombies chasing them wouldn't be very understanding about him needing to slow down or catch his breath.

For now, he didn't worry about it. He basked in the love his boyfriend had for him and his unborn child. No... /Their/ unborn child. Another happy little sob left him at that thought and he childishly made little grabby hands to bait his love into hugging him again. At least all that nervous energy was gone now and he could just enjoy the fact that he had his boyfriend back and that they wouldn't be parting again. He would be safe and taken care of as he needed it. He hadn't been lying about doing his best to do what he could, but it was an inevitability. In time he would have to focus his efforts on things that his body would allow him to do and leave the harder work to Katsuki. For now, he would do his best and be happy with his doting lover.

.....

He was angry, he was outraged! The love of his life, because they were separated, had to whore himself out for food and safety. It pissed him off to no end and if he ever saw that clan he’d kill them without any hesitation. Why would they be so cruel and force Eijirou to do that? He didn’t hold resent for Eijirou or the baby. The baby...they were gonna have a kid in their lives. That was dangerous here, in this world. Kids didn’t understand the importance of being quiet. He frowned a little and knew it would be hard for them, but they’d do it. For their family. He could never hate the love of his life or his child. This child was no one’s but his and Eijirous, to Katsuki it didn’t matter that it wasn’t biologically his. The kid would know no parents but the two of them, so to him, this was his kid.

When his eyes opened again, he was smiling at Eijirou, his expression soft. Though there was a deep rage behind his eyes, he was pissed off at the people who hurt Eijirou. But he needed to be calm and here for Eijirou. As he rubbed his hand on his belly and wiped at his tears, he softly kissed him. Of course he still loved him and wanted him. Eijirou was his everything, he was the only one that Katsuki felt ever truly loved him despite his temper.

Katsuki heard the soft sounds of Eijirou crying, but he just stayed at his belly and kissed softly. He loved the baby inside of him, he loved Eijirou. “I love you both. Our family. I’ll find you a safe place to grow up, I promise.” He said with his lips against his belly. He just kept kissing and rubbing his belly and mumbling to the baby inside of Eijirou. He knew the baby couldn’t understand him, but he couldn’t help it. He felt such a paternal instinct to protect and make sure his child knew that. His son or daughter needed his protection, and so did his lover. Now more than ever.

He smiled a little as he looked at his love. “I love you too, both of you. You tolerated my temper and believed in me, that’s what you did to deserve me. You’re the best and most manly fucking guy I’d ever met. I’m not gonna hate you for what happened, or the baby. It’s not the baby’s fucking fault. It’s those assholes who touched you. You’re never a damn burden. I’m fucking taking care of you and this baby now. You don’t need to worry about a damn thing.” Then he started thinking, they touched him, they touched his Eijirou. That pissed him off more than anything. They touched the love of his life, in ways only Katsuki was allowed to. They felt him, they probably kissed him. His had a frown for a moment. He couldn’t help be mad! He wanted to overwrite all of their hands on Eijirous body. He wanted to touch and kiss every inch of him, he wanted him to only know the feeling of Katsuki touching him.

He smiled though at Eijirou making grabby hands at him and smiling through his sobs. Katsuki felt tears start to slip down his cheeks as he moved up to wrap his arms around Eijirou. “I love you so damn much...I’m gonna find you a safe place where the baby can cry all they want and no zombies will get in. I’ll build a fence and make it safe. And I’ll find baby shit, and books to help. Cause I don’t know shit about babies except they cry a lot.” Katsuki kissed him and relaxed against the pillow a little. “Just...sleep for now. I’ll lay with you for a while but after I’m gonna start driving and I’ll start by finding somewhere for you to clean yourself. And then I’ll start finding things for the baby and then our home.” He kissed him again and ran his hand through Eijirous hair.

.....

So many little kisses and caressing to his belly! The sweet gestures felt nice to start, but the fact that he was showing affection to the babe developing in him, even speaking to them. He knew without question that he hadn't been this happy since before they had separated. Honestly, he was fairly sure he hadn't felt this happy since before everything went to Hell. There were still plenty of problems for them and more awaiting them in the future, but he wasn't concerned with those right now. He was back with Bakugou and together they could overcome anything, he was sure of it. He was startled when his boyfriend went out of his way to insist that he was manly, his heart skipping a beat. That alone drew a sob out of him and it was one of both happiness and relief. He needed that... So much... So, so very much! He hated what he'd become, even if he understood why it was happening, particularly after what had happened to him. The things that had happened to him were the main reason he couldn't help doubting himself. The things they said... The things he'd been called...

Once he had his love in his arms, he wiggled onto his side and snuggled right up, holding him tight. "We'll be okay. We can do this together, I know we can." When urged to sleep, he nodded, very much liking the sound of a good rest, one where he knew without a doubt that he was safe. He indulged in a few more loving kisses, the fingers in his silky hair relaxing him. Reaching back, he unbraided his hair so he was comfortable for sleeping. Setting his hair tie aside so he wouldn't lose it, he settled back in with the blonde and closed his eyes with a contented sigh. He wasn't afraid for the first time since they'd parted. Even when he had been with the clan, he might not have needed to worry about zombies, but he felt far from safe. Now, the arms around him, the lips brushing his skin, the hand in his bicolored hair, all of it he welcomed. There was no need to be afraid now. Slowly he started to drift off in his lover's arms, a soft smile pulling at his lips.

And then he was grumbling softly, eyes drifting back open just before he could drift off. "Every time... Please, let me sleep..." He muttered then smiled as he realized this would be new for Katsuki. "Here..." He prompted quietly, taking one of his boyfriend's hands and once again bringing it to his tummy. He pressed the other's palm skin to skin again, holding it there. After a short moment, Bakugou would be able to feel the faintest movement inside. "They always get active when I run and stuff, which makes sense because of the adrenaline, but it also happens right as I'm falling asleep. Just the first time though, they'll let me sleep in a little bit."

.....

Katsuki was happier than ever in this moment. He had the love of his life again, and now he had a child. They were going to have a baby. The happiness was rivaling the first time they kissed. His heart soared when they kissed for the first time. And it soared every time their lips met. He hoped Eijirou was just as happy. Katsuki kissed his belly again and smiled against his belly. He smiled as he spoke to the baby, muttering sweet things to the baby and taking about how much he was gonna ‘fucking adore this kid’. Then he shifted up to kiss Eijirou and be close to him. He really believed that the man in his arms was the manliest person. Because he made it through all of this, he had the resilience and the willpower to keep himself alive. He kissed him again and smiled. He put a hand on his cheek and rubbed his thumb against his skin. Katsuki didn’t hate what Eijirou had become during their time apart, he loved him just as much, even more if that was possible. He pulled him close and put their foreheads together. “I don’t know what they said to you, or called you...and I don’t want you to have to think about that. But whatever they said, they’re wrong. You’re the manliest man I’ve ever met. You are worth so damn much. I love every inch of you and you should love every inch of yourself too.” He kissed him again softly.

He wrapped his arm around his waist while his other was like a pillow under his head. The actual pillow he had, he’d pushed to where Eijirou would lay down so he could be more comfortable. He’d have to find another pillow soon. “We can, we will. As long as the three of us are together.” He moved his hand to touch his belly for a moment. Then moving his hand to comb his fingers through his hair. He kissed him back and smiled as he unbranded his hair. Katsuki combed his fingers through it and then picked up their hair tie so he wouldn’t end up rolling over and getting it lost. He put it on his wrist and ran his hand through his hair again. “I love you Eiji...sleep well.” He muttered and shifted so one arm was around his waist and the other brushed through his hair. Then shifting so his lips were pressed against his forehead. Katsuki watched him as he started to drift off, the smile on his face was so cute.

Then he started grumbling and his eyes opened. He raised an eyebrow and just looked at him worriedly. “What’s wrong?” He asked and then let his hand be put on his belly. And in a few moments he felt movement. His eyes widened and he pulled back to stare at his belly. “Is...Is that the baby?” He smiled a little and looked at Eijirou. He laid back down but left his hand on his belly, rubbing his thumb against his skin. “It’s amazing Eiji. That’s our baby moving around.” He kissed Eijirou and closed his eyes, pressing his lips against his forehead again. “Go to sleep, and when you wake up we’ll be somewhere new where you can bathe.”

.....

He smiled as Bakugou felt the baby for the first time, the feeling only the softest flutter through his belly. Little more than the babe inside him getting fussy about the hormone change that happens right as your body starts to switch from being awake to being asleep. "Yeah, that's them." He confirmed when asked the first time only for tears to well up when the blonde called the baby theirs. Bakugou really had claimed the babe as his own so naturally... His fingers interlocked with his lover's for a moment, squeezing his hand over the swell of his tummy.

"Ours..." He echoed back happily, the word or of a sigh than anything else. Sleepily he returned the kiss, eyes slipping shut and staying that way even after it had ended. He was so very tired... Already he was relaxing again to go back to sleep. "Mmnn... Bath... That would be... So, so nice..." He muttered, already half asleep again. Slowly the baby settled below Katsuki's hand and finally Kirishima was allowed to sleep. "Love you..." He murmured, the words a bit slurred.

With that, he finally quieted and grew still. His breathing deepened as he settled into sleep, his face relaxing entirely. In time, his lips parted and Bakugou was greeted with a familiar sound. Kirishima's breathing grew audible, but he never quite reached a proper snore. The brunette was well and truly asleep.

.....

Bakugou smiled as he stared down at his belly, that was their baby. No one else’s. Bakugou would hurt anyone that would try to hurt the little kid in there. He already cared about this baby more than anything. Kirishima and this baby were gonna be his whole life. Granted they were both young, only about 18 now. But they had to grow up fast anyways to live in this world. And now they were gonna be parents. Together, this baby was both of theirs. They were gonna be happy, he was gonna make sure they were both safe. But he was still mad...this baby wasn’t biologically his, even if they’d think they are. They wouldn’t know any other dads but Bakugou and Kirishima. He squeezed Kirishimas hand back, then kissing his forehead. “Hey what do you want the baby to call you? We both can’t be Dad. One of us has to be Daddy, Papa, somethin like that. The baby isn’t calling us Katsuki and Eijirou, that’s for sure.”

He nodded a little and rubbed his belly again. He rubbed his thumb against his skin as Kirishima fell asleep. “Mhmm, you’re gonna get to bathe baby.” He muttered against his forehead and smiled. “I love you too hun.” He said and smiled as Kirishima fell asleep. That was good, sleeping was good. Bakugou nuzzled against him and yawned, god he was tired. So he fell asleep, but he never slept very much anymore, he usually slept for only an hour at a time. So an hour later he was awake.

When he woke up to Kirishimas face infront of his, he smiled and kissed his forehead. “Sleep well babe..” He murmured and slowly got up, moving a pillow into Kirishima arms so he could hold that in place of Bakugou. He sat up and stretched, then getting into the front seat and rubbing his face. It was getting dark out. He sighed a little and started the van, the cd that had the mixtape playing lowly. Bakugou smiled a little and glanced back at Kirishima, then turning on the headlights and driving off down the road to find a good place for Kirishima to bathe in the morning. Eventually he found a house that he deemed safe. Then opening up the garage and parking in it. He climbed into the backseat and laid beside Kirishima, waiting for him to wake up.

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What would the baby call them? He hadn't really thought about that as he'd been so sure he'd be a single father. His far too sleepy mind only managed to get him to murmur wordlessly, the exhaustion both physical and emotional finally catching up with him. He contently drifted off to sleep, barely hearing the return 'I love you' from his love. For a time they slept together for the first time in a very hard year and it was absolutely wonderful. Eijirou felt safe enough to sleep deeply, surrounded by the warmth of his boyfriend as well as his scent.

In time he would be alone, but he had a warm pillow that smelled of him and the jacket around himself. He didn't wake, even when the van rumbled back on and started to drive. He was just so very tired... It was the loud sound of the garage doors closing once they were inside that finally started to drag him out of sleep. Groggy eyes blinked open to find his boyfriend coming back to join him again. As soon as he'd settled back down, he shared the pillow and snuggled right back up again. Closing his eyes again, he nuzzled his lover's chest and started to fall right back to sleep. It seemed he wasn't quite ready to wake yet.

He was only asleep for a couple more hours before he quietly started to whimper. Tears welled up in his sleep and then he was jolting up to sit, eyes wide as he cried out. He looked around fearfully only to spot Bakugou and slowly start to calm, trembling hands coming down to pet his own tummy. "We're safe... W-we're safe... We're safe..." It was hard to tell who exactly he was trying to convince, but the trauma was very much evident in both his posture and voice.

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He smiled a little at the thought of the baby calling them their fathers. Maybe Eijirou could be Dad and Katsuki could be Papa? He kinda liked that, Papa. Whatever Eijirou wanted to be called though, would be fine with him. He just wanted a happy husband and a happy child. He nodded a little at the murmur. “Okay, we can figure it out later.” He ran his hand through Eijirous hair with a smile on his face. Everything was perfect now, everything was gonna be okay. And he just laid with him for a bit, nuzzled against him and holding him. It was nice to hold him again, to smell him again, to touch him again. He felt safe again, like nothing could hurt him because the man he loved was safe.

He glanced back every now and then to check on Eijirou and make sure he was still asleep, and each time he would glance and see his sleeping form, he would smile. He’d think of every time, before they were split up, that he would make breakfast for the two of them and then go back to his room to see Eijirou sleeping in his bed. Then wake him up and get a sleepy kiss from his boyfriend before he told him breakfast was ready. When he noticed Eijirou had woken at the sound of the garage door, he frowned and muttered a quiet sorry as he laid with him. But once his arms wrapped around him, he was asleep again. Katsuki smiled at that and kissed his forehead. “Sleep well, Ei.”

Katsuki slept for a bit too, but woke when he heard the whimper. He pet Eijirous hair and whispered soft words to him, telling him he was safe now and he was with Katsuki again. Then when he jolted up he let go of him and sat up a little. He frowned deeply as he watched him look around in fear. Then watching as he pet his belly and muttered that they were safe. Katsuki shifted a little closer and gently placed his hand over Eijirous. “You both are, you and our baby are safe now. I’ll protect you.” He then wrapped his arms around his boyfriend and kissed his cheek. “Cmon, I found someplace you can wash yourself and we can spend the next day or two just to relax and be with eachother.”

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He sniffled softly as he calmed, pretty eyes still teary from his momentary panic looking over at his boyfriend. One of his hands came to sandwich Bakugou's between it and the hand already on his tummy. "I know. I know... I just... It was just a nightmare. I'm okay. We're together again, I know we're safe. We'll take care of each other." Taking a deep breath, he sighed it out and finally settled down again.

"That sounds like heaven..." The boy muttered, happy for the distraction. He snuggled for a moment, enjoying just being held before getting himself up and pulling his boyfriend up with him. Entering the house itself was a little stressful as they would first have to make absolutely sure the house was empty, both of other people and of the undead. Once they agreed on an all clear, it was time for a long overdue bath. He doubted there would be any hot water unless they heated it themselves, but a bath would still be wonderful. The lack of air conditioning made cool water feel nicer anyway.

Like before, he wasn't shy about stripping himself down in front of his old lover and this time he didn't even have to worry about his tummy showing as he already knew about it. Good thing too as it was a little easier to see with the way he was standing up rather than sitting down like before. It was still pretty subtle for the moment, but enough to be noticed if you were paying attention. He tested the faucet to see if the water would run clean, smiling softly when it did. Good. The water should be safe then. "Are you going to join be?" He asked as he allowed the water to flow over one of his hands. He was bent at the waist and providing his love with an unintentionally nice view of his naked backside.

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He rubbed his belly with one hand and put the other on his back, rubbing that too and sighing. He nodded a little and moved closer to Eijirou. “I’ll be here when you woke up after every nightmare, and if I’m gone to go to the bathroom or something, just yell for me and I’ll be right there.” He said quietly to Eijirou as he rubbed his belly. Katsuki smiled a little at him and kissed his shoulder softly. “We will, I’m never letting you go again.”

“Then let’s get you to your personal heaven.” He said and smiled, holding him until he got up. Katsuki stood with him and got out of the van, grabbing a few things to take inside with them. He could grab the rest later. Then made sure the house was safe, Katsuki checking every nook and cranny, cabinets even, before he deemed it safe enough for his love and their baby. He went through locking doors and barricading all of them except the one to the garage. Then going to the bathroom with him to make sure the water ran clear at least.

As he walked in and saw Eijirou stripping, he leaned against the doorframe, his arms crossed over his chest. He smiled a little and stared at him. Not really to just look at his body, but to appreciate that his love was safe again and here and happy. Then noticing his belly, he smiled and wanted to kiss it again, to just talk to their baby and tell them how much they’d be loved. When the water ran clean, he smiled, that was good. Then he watched him bend over to put his hand under the faucet. Katsuki looked him over and blushed a little. Eijirou was just as beautiful as he remembered, and if he stared too long he would end up getting turned on. So he averted his eyes quickly “If you want me to.” He said and started stripping off his clothes.

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He used the water to rub down the tub to get it as clean as he could with water alone before finally getting himself inside, shivering a little at the cold, but knowing he would get used to it. It was just nice to have clean water. Maybe someday he would be able to thank the clan that kept the water running for everyone, but there was little for it right now. "Why wouldn't I want you to? It's nice to have you close again and it saves time too." He pointed out, already starting to wash the dirt away. Here was another telling thing. He was only washing with water and didn't even ask if there was anything else to wash with. The water was helping, of course, his skin already lightening as the dirt loosened and washed away, but he didn't seem to expect there to be any sort of soap to wash with.

For the moment he focused on getting his body clean, rubbing with water alone to get as much off as he could. Despite only using water and said water being rather cold, he looked as happy as could be, even smiling softly as he worked. "I've missed you so much... We should totally take this chance to catch up a little, shouldn't we? What's happened since we were apart? I mean, you already pretty much know what happened to me."

He looked over to watch his love finish stripping himself, rather openly looking at him this time. He'd always thought Bakugou was handsome and that certainly hadn't changed. He had the compulsion to not just look, but touch. To help his lover wash just because he could. To kiss along what he'd cleaned... His mind was quickly going into the gutter so he had to force himself to look away and focus on washing himself for now. The last thing he needed was to get sick because he was too dirty for too long. Medicine was extremely hard to come by nowadays and finding someone with a healing quirk almost guaranteed a visit to one of the larger clans and the prices were always steep. No, best to take care of yourself as best as you could.

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Katsuki watched as he rubbed down the tub, humming a little as he watched him. He smiled and stared at him with admiration. God he was just so beautiful and strong and Katsuki was amazed. Eijirou, his love, his life, was here. He was alive. Katsuki had spent so much time trying to get over Eijirou and move on and accept that he’s gone, but he never could. And now he didn’t have to. “You know I can use my quirk to heat the water, right? I can use little explosions to make it warmer.” He said and walked closer to Eijirou. He watched for another moment before he knelt down by a cabinet and started going through it; then finding a bottle of body wash. He walked over and set it down on the edge of the tub. “Clean yourself properly baby, you should have thought to look. No one really searches for cleaning stuff, they’re more focused on food and survival equipment.”

He smiled at the way Eijirou looked, he seemed so happy that he could clean himself off. Katsukis smile grew as he watched him. He stripped off his clothes as he walked closer to the tub. “I missed you too...I’ve been...surviving. Not living, just surviving. I tried coping with you being gone, but I couldn’t. It was hard as hell to be without you. It broke me. But I survived anyways. I was hanging onto the hope that you were still alive.

Then standing beside the tub and getting in behind Eijirou, he leaned his head against his back. “I missed you so much, I missed feeling your hands on me and your body against mine. I missed your voice and hearing you say my name...” He put his hands on Eijirous back after dipping them into the water. Then sitting up and rubbing his hands over his back. “You mean the world to me Eiji...I hope you know that.” He said and grabbed the bottle of body wash, pouring some onto Eijirous back and getting his hands wet again to start cleaning his back off better.

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"Right... It's been so long... I didn't even think about warming up the water. Well, better get cleaned first anyway. We can stop up the tub after and warm that up." That sounded absolutely amazing in of itself, but just having a nice warm soak with his thought to be dead love was something he could barely imagine at this point. He blinked in surprise as a bottle was placed on the lip of the tub next to him, eyes widening. Soap. He was going to get to use soap! "I... I'd just assumed this place was probably picked clean by now!" He was quick to grab the bottle, but only used the smallest amount he could get away with. He would make this shit last for as long as he could! As they had a van to keep things in, picking up something like soap was alright as you didn't have to choose between filling what precious little backpack space you had with either soap or food.

He started to wash properly now, just beside himself at the thought of /actually/ getting clean and not just getting clean/er/. His smile fell a little as Bakugou spoke, however. He wasn't sure what he'd been expecting, but this wasn't it. Perhaps some exciting stories? But... Bakugou... Broke? That wasn't something that he'd ever thought possible. He'd always thought that the boy could recover from anything! He'd like to think that Bakugou would be sad and upset at losing him, but to break...? Did he mean that much to him? The thought was flattering, but it was still upsetting to think that his absence had hurt the other teen so much. He must have been so lonely... Kirishima sure as hell was. What was important was that they were back together again! He had to look at the bright side for the both of them.

He forced a smile almost shyly as he looked over his shoulder at the blond as he got in with him only to snuggle right up against his back. "We're together again and that's how it's going to stay. Everything will be okay now. I'm sure of it." Considering the world they lived in, one could never really be sure of anything, but a little optimisim could go a long way and it felt like they needed it about now. He arched his back into his love's hands as he washed his back for him a moment later. It felt so nice to be touched by the love of his life again... Even just being taken care of like this. "Love you... So much..." He murmured, reminding himself to keep washing the rest of him. Soon enough he was awkwardly ducking his head under the running water only to start washing his now rather long two-toned hair.

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He nodded at that and smiled. “Alright baby, we can relax after we clean off.” He said and smiled at Eijirou. He’d enjoy cleaning off with him and then relaxing with his love in his arms. Katsuki smiled at the thought, it would be great, to just sit together. “Picked clean of food maybe. But when this started people don’t think about soap, and even now they don’t even bother looking. Like you didn’t bothers. I’ve got some stashed in the car just incase there wasn’t gonna be any in here.” He said and smiled a little at Eijirous sudden excitement. Katsuki hummed a little for a moment and then got in with Eijirou.

Katsuki smiled as he cleaned Eijirous back, rubbing his hands over his skin and smiling. But the smile broke and his voice faltered. His hands stopped and he just let them stay on Eijirous back, staring at his skin. He broke without his boyfriend, the love of his life. Eijirou was his reason to keep going when this shit started, then he lost him. His life fell apart and he didn’t want to keep going. But that little hope that he was still alive, kept Katsuki going. Now he could recover, he could be okay again. Eijirou meant everything to him, he hurt so much without him by his side, without his love. Katsuki cared for him more than anything. “You know you mean everything to me...right? I love you more than any damn thing in the world.”

When he felt Eijirou press up against his back, he smirked and kissed his shoulder. “I’m never letting you go...” He murmured and wrapped his arms around him. Katsuki let out a content sigh and nodded as he held him. “It’s gonna be fine, I’ll protect you and our baby.” He placed his hand on Eijirous belly and kissed his shoulder again. When he pulled back to keep washing him, he smiled at his boyfriend pressing into his hands. “I love you too.” Katsuki said and smiled as he watched him wash his hair. As he looked at the red and black hair, he smiled and reached forward to run his hand through it. “Do you want me to cut it? I’ve always cut mine, I think I’d do okay cutting yours. Only if you want me to.” He said and glanced at the hairtie around his wrist, that he had picked up after Eijirou took his hair out of the ponytail to sleep.

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"I'll be sure to look better in the future! Heh... Guess there's a reason I sucked so much at surviving on my own. Food and clean water were the only things I was worried about and I wasn't very good at finding those either, particularly food. That's why I had to... Uh... A-anyway! I don't have to worry about that stuff anymore, now that I'm with you again. And neither of us have to be lonely anymore!" It was hard to uplift the mood considering the state of the world as they knew it, but he felt like at times like these, it was important to grasp the happy things and hold them tight.

When the wonderful feeling of his back being washed came to a halt he realized he would once again have to lift the mood, but more importantly, he needed to comfort his boyfriend. "You were my everything too. The thought of you was honestly what kept me going, but we found each other again and we'll never be apart again, okay? I love you with all of me and the three of us are gonna be happy together, you'll see. We'll have a family again."

His heart fluttered at how protective his love was being of him. He could take care of himself fairly well in this sense, but the love and dedication meant so very much to him, especially after having been on his own, even when he'd been more or less provided for in the settlement he'd been part of. "We'll protect each other. No one can stop us if we're together!" Unable to help himself he brought his hands up and made them into fists before hardening. A second later and Katsuki would hear as well as feel the familiar stony 'thunk' of his boyfriend's fists slamming together. "Love you too! Now and always!"

He hesitated then when he was offered the chance at a hair cut. He brought a lock of his hair over in front of him, gently running his fingers through the inky strands down into what was once brilliant red. It was dull, faded and didn't really look like red anymore. A part of his mind chimed in that it was ugly and he shut that part of his brain right up. He would never be able to dye it again. Even if they came across the supplies he would need, any hair dye they would probably be expired or close to it if they found bleach or peroxide it would be an absolute waste to use it on something as petty as bleaching his hair so he could dye it the brilliant red he had used. The dull pinkish mess at the end of his hair was all that he'd have from now on. At the same time, his hair was starting to get quite long and if it got much longer it could start to seriously get in the way. As it was, he needed to keep it in a braid to keep it from doing that already. He couldn't just keep growing it out.

"I, uh..." The tip of his tongue peeked out to moisten his chapped lips. "I should, but... C-could I braid it and tie it off on the other end too so I can keep it...? I know it's stupid... It's just hair... I just... Fuck... Nevermind, I'm being dumb. We should just cut it off. We have bigger things to worry about." He could already feel the regret of not keeping it, his voice tight, tears welling up in his eyes. It was just some dyed hair, sure, but it had been a huge part of his identity, enough so that he'd stubbornly kept it till now. It meant so much to him and was linked to so many memories. He was trying to convince himself that it would be ridiculous to keep faded, dyed hair, but his heart ached at the thought of just tossing away that part of himself like it had meant nothing.

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He nodded and smiled. “Well now you’ve got me to help you survive. And I can teach you more stuff. I learned more about hunting, setting traps, fortifying a place to make it safe...stuff that’ll help when we find out forever home. We can have a garden and walls to keep our family safe, we can hunt for deer n rabbits n shit.” He murmured and kissed Eijirous shoulder. Holding onto happy things had been hard for him, but now he had Eijirou, the one thing in the world that made him happy now was his boyfriend. Well, him and the baby. They had a child, someone they could raise and love and hopefully give a good life, despite the state of the world.

“I know. I’m not letting you out of my sight ever again Ei..I can’t loose you again.” His voice cracked a little and tears welled in his eyes as he scooted closer to Eijirou and wrapped his arms tighter around his waist. But then cursed and loosened them, worried about squishing the baby. He didn’t really understand what would hurt the baby or not, so he’d rather be careful.

While Katsuki knew Eijirou could take care of himself, but he felt such a need to protect him. And now he was pregnant, he wouldn’t be able to run as fast when he got bigger. What would happen then? And what about when the baby is born, what if they aren’t somewhere safe yet where the baby can cry all they want and they won’t need to worry about zombies? Maybe he should work on soundproofing the van as best he could before they find somewhere to settle down. He didn’t want to find a settlement for them to live in, even if they’d have walls, safety, a doctor that could help deliver the baby. The cost would be high. What if they made Eijirou whore himself out in exchange for protection like the last settlement? He didn’t want that. He didn’t want anyone else to ever touch Eijirou again. Or what if they wanted more than the two of them could give? Katsuki would rather find and protect their own home.

He smiled softly when he heard that thunk, knowing what he was doing. “I love you, I missed you. I missed your dorkiness.” If he could find not expired hair dye and hair bleach he’d gladly help Eijirou with it. Katsuki knew how he loved his bright red hair and it made him feel comfortable and happy. And that was important to him. His lovers happiness was so important to him. “Course you can, Ei, baby, if you wanna keep your long hair you can. I think it looks nice on you. But at least lemme trim off the dead ends, okay? It won’t even be an inch gone.” He said and ran his fingers through his hair. “Keep your hair long Ei, whatever’s gonna make you happy.” Katsuki said softly and got some more body wash and started washing his boyfriend more thoroughly.

Katsuki leaned out of the tub for a moment and opened up the little cabinet, smiling when he found shampoo. He sat back down and put some shampoo into his hands before starting to work it into Eijirous hair. And after he thoroughly worked it in, he worked some into his own hair. “Ya know Ei...you talked about us being together again, like...ya know...” He murmured and rubbed his hands up and down his waist gently. “When do you want to? There’s beds here, it’ll be comfier than the bed in the van. I-If you still want to.” He said nervously and looked away, his face red.

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"Yeah! Teach me! Uh, maybe you should teach me the gardening and house stuff first. I don't know if I'll be able to help hunting in a few months," he pointed out, a little embarrassed as he looked down at the growing swell of his belly. It wasn't very noticeable yet, but it was only going to get more and more noticeable from here on out. He was drawn out of his thoughts before he could get lost too deep in them when a kiss was pressed to his shoulder. A smile pulled at the redhead's lips, much of his tension dying away again. He knew that Bakugou was with him again, he knew that, but it was so hard to comprehend after being apart. In the grand scheme of things, it wasn't even all that long, less than a year, yet it felt like it was a lifetime ago. Each familiar little gesture made it all that much more real.

He chuckled softly as the nice squeeze to his middle was suddenly cut short. The concern was very sweet and it meant a lot that he was being so gentle with his little one. He moved his lovers arms up to his chest instead and hugged his arms tight there, safely away from his tummy. "I'm here, babe. I'm not going anywhere." He promised, leaning his head back to rest on the blond's shoulder for a little so he could fully enjoy being held. Once the hug was over and he gone through his little manly display that he'd carried with him since high school, he sat up again and was surprised that the other was actually urging him to keep his hair long.

"I... Heh..." He smiled softly, turning to kiss the blond's cheek affectionately. "You're so good to me, Katsuki... I love you too... So much! It really is too long though. Not that I've ever had a problem with guys having long hair, but it's dangerous in the time we live in. It can get caught on something and people /have/ grabbed my by it more than once. I just... After I lost you, my hair was all I had left from before. Now I have you again, I... I want to keep the died part, for the memories, but once that's cut off and put away, could you cut it short? I dunno what would really look good on me anymore so you can pick. Whatever you like on me, ya know?" He was being honest too. It was hard bringing that chapter of his life to a close, but honestly, it had closed the day the world had ended. He needed to move on. The momento would be enough.

He looked over curiously when the blond reached out of the tub and this time managed to produce some shampoo! "Seriously?! Kats, you're magic!" He insisted, smiling widely. Soap was not really good to use for hair, but it did the job. Shampoo, needless to say, did a much better job at it! He tilted his head back and openly moaned as shampoo was worked into the thick, inky locks, eyes fluttering shut as he relished the tender attention. Even once Bakugou was done with him, he straightened and sat there for a bit, not wanting to wash it out just yet.

Pretty ruby eyes blinked lightly when his love spoke again, looking back at him curiously only for a smile to pull at his lips as his cheeks warmed. It really had been forever, hadn't it? Long enough to leave Bakugou feeling bashful. So cute! "I want to... Let's finish up and get to bed. We really need to get to know each other again." He leaned in to pluck a shy kiss from the blond's lips. "I want you to show me just how good you can make me feel again and I want you to be a mindless mess for me right back. I want to hear you call my name and I'm sure you'll get me to call yours again and again." He teased gently, already feeling his body warming up to the idea.

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He smiled and nodded, rubbing a hand gently over his belly. “Alright, I’ll teach you gardening and all about cooking. I’ll cook too sometimes, but I might not get the chance if I’m out hunting and foraging.” He said and looked down at his belly. “You decided what you want the baby to call you? Dad, Papa, Pops...I think Dad suits you more and Papa suits me. But if you’d rather go the other way around I’m good with that too.” Katsuki said softly and nuzzled against his shoulder after kissing it. He would do his best to make Eijiro happy while he’s pregnant, do his best to sate cravings, do his best to get him some clothes that would fit comfortably while he’s pregnant. Even if they weren’t separated for a year, it felt hard, felt awful. He didn’t want to be apart from Eijirou, ever again.

Katsuki smiled and hugged him tight again when his arms were moved. “You better not go anywhere ever again Eiji, I need you.” He murmured and part of him wanted to nuzzle into his hair, but it was dirty, so he would rather wait until his hair was clean again. He hummed as he held his boyfriend, just relaxing with him in his arms for a minute. “I love you too baby.” He said softly and nuzzled against his cheek, grinning and kissing it. “You wanna keep it? Like in a box or somethin?” He asked and tilted his head to the side. “Maybe I could just cut it to where it was when we were in high school? Or maybe shorter if you want?

“I like anything on you baby, you’re perfect. Maybe we could find hair bleach and dye somewhere and dye your hair again. I doubt people are looting for that stuff.” He murmured and then grabbed the shampoo. “Nope, people just loot for food and clothes these days, not really focused on hygiene.” Katsuki said as he worked shampoo into Eijiros hair, humming softly. “You’re so pretty baby...I missed your face.” He said and rubbed his hands up and down his waist for a moment after rinsing off his hands. “Pictures don’t compare to how handsome you really are.”

The sudden moan made his face flush brightly. “Christ Ei...” He said softly, worried about if Eijirou would still want to have sex or not. Was he too tired? Was he gonna be scared of Katsuki touching him after those people touched him? He nodded and kissed him back softly. “Alright Ei.” He murmured and hugged him against his chest. “I’ll make you feel good, overwrite everything, every touch, kiss, I’m gonna make you all mine again.” He kissed over Eijirous shoulders and his neck for a moment. “I know it might be dumb but...will it hurt the baby if I’m a little rough?” His voice was soft, obviously nervous about it.

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"I know how to cook a little. In school, I figured that I should if I was gonna be trying to put on a lot of muscle, right? Now, I didn't have much choice, I had to, but what I know is pretty basic. It tastes good and stuff, but I figure it doesn't taste great. Just stuff over a fire, ya know?" The brunette was honestly excited to get better at a skill he felt 'decent' at. He knew that once he was particularly heavy with baby, he would be virtually useless so being able to cook and tend to a garden would really help him feel better. Hm... He wondered if they would be able to keep some chickens or something. The regular supply of eggs would probably be worth it.

"Oh! Right!" He joined his lover in smiling to his tummy. "I think I like 'Dad'. Heh... You should be Poppop. Ya know..." He brought his own hands up and opened and closed his fists to simulate little explosions as he spoke again. "Pop-pop." He smiled like an idiot, snickering at his own pun. Affectionately he gave his tummy a rub, wondering what the little being inside of him would be like. He didn't even have a way of knowing what the sex was. He would just have to wait and see, not like they could throw a baby shower or something like that. "We should think of names. Boy and girl names, in case."

He relished the tightness of the hug, murmuring contently at the pleasant squeeze. He hadn't realized how much he loved physical affection till it was gone. This was saying something as he was already well aware that he very much enjoyed it. "Heh... Yeah... Just... Like a little braid I can keep in my pack. "Proof the world existed before all this and to remember all the good memories I had during this time of my life." He explained, pulling the dull reddish ends over to look at. Perhaps if they found some red dye, he could redye it. It was already stripped of color anyway so he wouldn't even need bleach to touch up the color. At least he was pretty sure that it would work fine. He was sure he definitely didn't want to waste something as precious as bleach on his hair though.

"As for how to cut the rest of my hair, uh... I dunno. Really short would mean we wouldn't have to cut it as often, but I don't know if that would look good on me. I don't really remember having hair shorter than my jawline before." He shrugged lightly, keeping still as his hair was shampooed and loving every second of it. He couldn't help chuckling at the curse his pleased sounds had earned him.

He eagerly snuggled back when held, flushing darker and darker at the things his love promised to do for him. A moment later, he blinked then snickered, shaking his head. "No! Unless you've discovered some kind of gut-punching kink or something, the baby should be fine. Just don't squish them, okay?" Leaning in, his lips found his blond's again, pressing a lingering kiss there before speaking against his lips. "Now come on... Let's rinse off so you can show me a good time." With that he was reluctantly leaning away to rinse the shampoo out of his hair and get the rest of the soap off of him. Once he was done, he was getting up and out of the tub, offering a hand to the other to help him to his feet.

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“Remember when I’d make dinner for us sometimes? Or for the whole Bakusquad?...I miss that. I miss our friends Ei.” He said softly and tensed up a little. He wasn’t sure if anyone was alive, he wasn’t sure if Eijirou knew or not. Katsuki didn’t think to call anyone but the love of his life. The one reason he had to keep going. He sniffled and sat up a little straighter. “I’ll teach you to cook with what we’ve got. And once we have a good garden I’ll teach you stuff with that. Maybe we can grow wheat, sugarcane, figure out how to make flour, sugar and make bread, maybe noodles too. I’m sure I can find a fuckin cookbook or somethin that’ll show us how. Finding the tools for it might be more difficult but I can figure it out.” Having chickens would be nice, they’d just have to find some. Maybe they could find an already established farm, with some animals that were still alive, crops that were still growing.

He rolled his eyes at the pun and kissed his cheek. “Dumbass, it is cute, but Poppop would make me feel like a grandpa.” He murmured against his cheek and smiled widely. Katsuki missed that, he missed Eijirous jokes, missed him easily lightening the mood. He gently rubbed his hand over his belly and hummed. The mention of names made him smile and nod. “Names for the baby...I’ll start thinking of some.” Whether the baby was a boy or a girl, that didn’t matter to him. What mattered was that the baby was happy and healthy. “I should look for baby stuff every time we loot now, huh? Better to stock up on everything rather than be short on something. Even if it’s way too fuckin early.”

Katsuki smiled and nodded. Physical affection wasn’t something he really came to love until Eijirou. “Alright, we can do that. Keep it in a baggie so it won’t get all over your bag.” He hummed as he worked his fingers through Eijirous hair, gently working out knots with his fingers. “Most people aren’t really looking for hair bleach now anyways, and hair bleach is different from the kind in a jug so we can’t really use it for cleaning...and your hair is a priority to me. Cause it makes you happy to have red hair.” He played around with his hair for a minute or so, just humming and thinking of a style that would look good. “Maybe we can cut it to your jawline and then go shorter if you want? Whatever you wanna do, it’ll look nice.” Katsuki said and pet his hair.

“Nope, no new kinks. They’re all the same.” He murmured and rubbed his hand over his belly again. “I won’t squish em.” He said softly and kissing him eagerly. Katsuki rinsed off quickly, wanting to get into bed with his boyfriend soon. When he was done, he smiled as he watched Eijirou get up and out. For a moment he just looked at him. “You’re so beautiful.” He murmured as he got our, holding his hand and then walking out of the bathroom with him, grabbing towels from a little closet on the way to the bedroom. He shook the dust off and dried Eijirou, rubbing the towel all over his body and then using another to try his hair. Then he dried himself off.

When they got into the bedroom, he went to the bed and pulled off the top blanket, quickly talking it out of the bedroom to shake dust off. He brought it back and put it back down on the bed. Katsuki walked over to Eijirou and picked him up. “Wrap your legs around me baby.” He murmured and carried him to the bed, putting him down and leaning over him, smiling as he kissed him. “God I missed you. Missed your lips, your face, everything about you.”

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"Yeah... Yeah, I remember. I... I wonder if Mina made it. She was still alive when the line went dead." It was concerning that she was the only one he brought up. Judging by the tightness in his voice, it suggested he knew something about their other two friends he wasn't saying. "I missed your cooking. I hope I'm not too bad when you start teaching me." He forced himself to move the conversation forward and not think too hard on the memories he'd been carrying for so long. "We need something to grind for that stuff though, right? Think I could be good at that?"

He couldn't help snickering at the reaction he got for his dumb joke, snuggling back against his lover. "Maybe just 'Pop' then." He relented, pressing little affectionate kisses along his jaw. "We have plenty of time to think of some good names. Heck, we can pick whatever characters we want, who would tell us no, but each other, right?" He pointed out, honestly excited about how eager his lover was. They'd only just reunited again and already he was throwing himself into a fatherhood he hadn't asked for with as much dedication as he did anything else he felt was worth his time.

"I mean, I don't think people will care if it's the wrong kind of bleach at this point. Still, I think it's better that I don't try to dye my hair again. It just wouldn't be sustainable and it would take another year or two before I could cute away all the faded stuff, assuming we could even find any red, the shade I like or not. It was a dumb hangup. I need to put it behind me and accept the reality of things. Like I said, if we find some red dye, I'll dye the hair I kept, that will be enough for me," he assured, nuzzling cheek to cheek with his dearest.

"Yeah that sounds good. I trust you. We'll start there and you can cut it however you think looks good. Shorter is probably better so we don't have to cut it as often, but I don't know how short to go. You pick whatever you want. Really! I want to look good for you!" He insisted on, giving the blond's jaw a playful little nip.

"I mean, new kinks are okay, but ya know, within reason." He laughed sheepishly, feeling his cheeks flush. He'd had to indulge whatever the people that had taken him in had wanted of him. He knew his love wouldn't be so cruel, but he was admittedly more open to kinks than he used to be. Once out of the tub, he wrang out his hair only to freeze, startled by the sudden compliment. He flushed, looking down at himself for a moment. "You really think so? Still? I look like such a mess... A-and after everything they did, I have new scars and... You really don't think I'm ugly? Or dirty?" He swallowed hard, loosely hugging himself as his anxiety and self consciousness got the better of him.

The way he was dried off with so much care was wonderful and very much helped soothe some of his nerves. "You're so good to me..." The brunette was more than happy to walk hand in hand with him to the bedroom. Curiously, he looked around inside the room that had once belonged to strangers, still able to see the details here and there that proved they'd once been there. There he waited as Bakugou kindly took the sheet out to shake off then placed it back on the bed. Not exactly clean, but nothing really was anymore. This would still be better than he'd had in quite some time.

When his lover drew close, he slipped his arms around his neck and shoulders only to blink lightly at the unexpected instruction, heart skipping a beat at the endearment. Being called 'baby' felt so very different coming from someone that loved him so much... He bit his lip at the surge of emotion, nodding and sure enough wrapping strong legs around the other's waist to allow himself to be carried. "So manly..." He cooed, enjoying how easily he was being carried around. The next moment he was gently being lowered to the bed and he was leaning in to meet the kisses offered to him. "I missed you too... So much! I love you, more than anything in the world! I can't live without you again! I can't..."

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“Really? Well...maybe we’ll see her again someday.” Part of him wanted to ask about Sero and Kaminari...but Eijirou didn’t mention them, which meant he knew they must be long gone by now. “She could melt the hell outta some zombies with her quirk.” He smiled and rubbed his lovers hips gently. “I think you’ll be fine babe.” He said softly and then nodded again. “Yeah, I didn’t even think about your quirk for that. That’ll be really useful.” He smiled and kissed his cheek. “You’re so damn smart.” Katsuki grinned at him as he spoke.

“Pop sounds better.” He nodded and smiled at the kiss. “Mhmm, whatever we want. Nobody can tell us no.” Katsuki said and nuzzled into his hair. “And I’m not about to start telling you no unless you wanna do something dumb and dangerous.” He murmured and rubbed his hip. Katsuki knew it was a lot, being a father, especially in this world. They wouldn’t be able to know if the baby is healthy or not, they wouldn’t be able to know the sex of the baby, or what their quirk could even be life. If Katsuki was the biological father they’d know that the kid would have either a combo of their quirks or a copy of one of theirs. But with an unknown biological father, it was all up in the air.

Katsuki nodded a little and played with a strand of Eijirous hair idly. “Okay, as long as you’re gonna be okay with that.” He murmured as Eijirou rubbed their cheeks together. “I think really long looks good on you, that’s for sure. But then again, anything looks fucking amazing on you Ei.” He said and grinned, kissing just under his ear. “You don’t have to look good just for me, look good for yourself too. You would be confident in yourself, happy with the way you look.”

He blushed brightly and nodded a little. “Well if you’ve got anything you wanna try out babe, lemme know.” He said a little softer and hugged him before getting up. “Of course I still think you’re beautiful. You’ll always be beautiful to me. I love your scars because I fucking adore you Ei.” He wrapped his arms around him and kissed his cheek. “You aren’t ugly or dirty. You’re so goddamn perfect.” Katsuki was gentle as he dried him off, patting over his chest gently rather than rubbing and patting around his belly too. “Hey...when we get dressed and get outta this place I’ve got a surprise for you in the car.” He said and kissed him, smiling. “I think you’re gonna like it.”

Katsuki smiled and kissed his neck softly when he picked him up and carried him to the bed. If Eijirou told him he liked the nickname of ‘baby’ coming from him, he would call him that constantly. “Yeah? You like when I’m all strong and manly?” He asked and kissed him deeper. “I can’t live without you either Ei. I need you in my life, every single day I wanna wake up to your handsome face.” He murmured and started to kiss along his neck. Katsuki left a dark hickey on his neck and after he was satisfied with how dark and big it was, he kissed down between his breasts and glanced up at him.

For a moment he just stared at him. “I love you so much, so fucking much. I’ve missed you, I really can’t stand being without you honey...let’s never get separated again baby, always hold my hand when we go out. Okay?” He said and gently took Eijirous hand in his own, squeezing gently and looking up at him. “Promise me...” Katsuki pulled his hand up to his lips and kissed the back of it.

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"I've asked around as I've traveled, but no one's seen a pink girl so far. You're right though, she does have a really good quirk to be keeping safe." His real worry, honestly, was her ability to find supplies. Eijirou himself had a good quirk for this life too. He could stroll into any zombie-filled building and not have to worry about being bitten. That helped him a little in finding supplies as he could go places people couldn't normally reach safely, but that didn't change the fact he wasn't good at finding where to go to find said supplies. Still, he hoped that she was alright somewhere out there...

When the clever application for his quirk was complimented, he couldn't help blushing at how nice it felt. He didn't think he was particularly smart, but being told he was felt wonderful. The kiss to his cheek was a very welcome reward as well. It was so nice to be given affection... It had been far too long since he'd been intimate with anyone that actually cared about him.

"I think it will really be up to the kid in the end, but we'll see." Still he was glad that he liked Pop at least. It really would make a difference for their little one to call them different sounding names so things didn't get confusing. He wondered what their little one would be like. All five of the possible fathers had completely different quirks so if they manifested any of them, he'd know exactly which one had won the 'race' so to speak. It didn't matter he supposed... He had no intention of going back there ever again.

"You really like me with long hair? Alright... How about we keep it at my shoulders and once we're in a safe place for the long haul, I'll let it grow back out again?" He offered, liking the thought of that himself. Even when they were still in school, he'd been starting to grow his hair out, but things had gone South soon after he'd decided that and so hadn't gotten the chance to do it. Maybe sometime soon he would get to indulge.

He hadn't expected to be showered with compliments, but he really should have. Katsuki had never taken his habit of self-deprecating well and it seemed that hadn't changed during their time apart. "Thank you... That really means a lot. It's really hard for me to feel that way right now and I doubt it'll get easier the further along I get." He bit his lip, blinking away tears as he was dried off, the pointed way his boyfriend patted him dry so as not to draw as much attention to the parts of him he felt unsure of meaning the world. "You're so good to me... I don't deserve you, but I'm just selfish enough to want to keep you anyway."

He blinked lightly then, cocking his head to the side. "Surprise?" He asked, shocked at the suggestion. They'd only just found each other so the blond had to have already had whatever it was he was intending to give to him, but that didn't make it any less special. He wondered what it was, but didn't press more for information. A surprise wouldn't be a surprise if he was told what it was, after all. For now, he would just be excited to find out what it was that his lover was so sure he would enjoy.

He nodded, smiling to the blond as he was carried over to the bed. "You know I do!" Eagerly he met each kiss, whimpering happily when he was called 'handsome'. Normally he didn't mind being called 'pretty' or 'beautiful' as both girls and boys could be called both, but with as insecure as his body was making him feel, the distinction felt nice.

When he felt those wonderful lips and teeth find his neck, he didn't hesitate to tilt his head to offer it and give Katsuki all the space he could want. His breath hitched at the firm suck at his skin, moaning softly as he was marked. He was well aware that's exactly what was happening too and he more than welcomed it. He craved it, needed it! He wanted the world to know exactly who he belonged to. Honey? Goodness, he was using a lot of endearments! He loved every single one, honestly enjoying the extra sweet affection. "Love you... Love you so much! I... I can't hold your hand in the middle of fights, Kats, but I'll stay close no matter what. I promise. I won't let anything come between us ever again."

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“Really?...maybe we should try closer to UA...I figured some students or teachers might try to stay there. Actually...Ei it might be a good idea. There’s walls, it’s safe, big, we could live there.” There’s plenty of room for crops, a big ass garden, a ton of our stuff is still there in the dorms. And it shouldn’t really be looted unless some of our classmates are living there.” He said and smiled a little. “But uh...if you’d rather not go there, we can find a place in the country.” Katsuki said and frowned a little. He knew places to go for supplies, places that some people wouldn’t think to look in. Like for medicine, vet offices, veterinary schools and hospitals, some of those medications for animals are the same for humans. Though it should only be done as a last resort.

He would be scared if Eijiro said he’d go in a building alone, full of zombies with only hardened skin to protect him. He wouldn’t want to let him do it. He wouldn’t want to let him risk his life. Even though he knew his quirk could protect him, he knew how strong it was, but he would still be scared. Katsuki gave him a few more kisses before pulling back a little to nod.

Katsuki hummed a little and thought. “Right, up to the kid...speaking of the kid, after you have this one...being an only child fucking sucked, do you wanna have another at some point? Two little brats rather than just one. Just...figured I’d ask.” He shrugged and looked away for a moment. “And uh...after we have our fun tonight, I wanna know about those guys quirks so I can try to figure out what our kids quirk would be.” He said and hugged him tightly.

“Mhmm, it’s nice...I can braid it, before whenever your hair was down it was kinda fluffy... It was nice to play with.” Katsuki said and kissed his shoulder gently. “Yeah, that sounds good. I’ll cut it in the morning, alright?” He asked and smiled at him. “We can braid the ends you wanna keep and put it in a baggie, alright?” Katsuki didn’t like the self-deprecation, he didn’t like that Eijiro looked down on himself.

He thought of the man as absolutely perfect. His boyfriend was perfect. “You should always feel gorgeous, so so gorgeous. Even when you’re nine months pregnant you’re gonna be handsome.” And now thinking about that, he needed to learn how to deliver a baby. How to take care of a newborn...he had a lot to worry about. He chuckled and smiled at him. “Oh baby...you deserve much more than me.” He murmured and kissed his cheek. “But I’m glad you wanna keep me around. I want you, I need you.”

Katsuki nodded and grinned. “I really think you’ll love it. Well it’s a few things.” He couldn’t bare to toss out Eijiros stuff he had in his own bag when they lost eachother. He usually kept one of his binders and a change of clothes if he could fit it. And now, in a bag in a storage compartment under a seat in the van, was that change of clothes, a hoodie, one of his old bandana and a binder. There were a few Crimson Riot things he’d found while looting too. He really just couldn’t bare to part with anything that could even remotely remind him of Eijiro.

“Mhmm, then get prepared for a whole lot of fucking manliness.” He said and grinned wider. When he whined, he kissed his jaw. “You’re so handsome, so so handsome baby.” Katsuki murmured against his jaw and nipped at him a little.

Eijiro tilting his head made him smirk and bite a little harder. Katsuki knew that pet names weren’t really his thing, but he had a lot of time to make up for, a lot of sweet names to call Eijiro. “I love you, and you better hold my hand as long as possible. In fights, stay in my sight, okay?” He asked and touched his cheek, cupping it for a moment. “Nothings gonna come between us ever again.” He said and leaned his forehead against Eijiros, staring into his eyes for a moment. He smiled softly and kissed him deeply. “Prep may take time, we don’t have lube and I don’t wanna hurt you.”

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"I think it's worth a try. If there was an outbreak in there, it would be a death trap, but if it's safe, I can't imagine a safer place to live! I hope we find friends inside..." He honestly hoped that what was always such a beacon of hope might still be in these trying times. Even if it had fallen, if they could get inside safely, they would surely be able to clear it out and get the security system to work for them! Well... Assuming Bakugou could figure it out... If not, he was quite sure he wouldn't have a clue what to do with it.

He enjoyed each little kiss he was given, looking as content as could be only to slowly settle into shock when his lover dropped the next question on him. Katsuki wanted to have a baby with him. On purpose. He was stunned for a moment, but soon enough he was nodding. "Y-yeah! I mean, obviously, we should wait till we're safe for the long run, but yes!" Eagerly he pressed several more kisses to his love's lips. "I love you... I love you so much..." He was a little surprised when the blond looked away from him, but then it made sense. He smiled weakly with a nod. "Bait, Glimmer, Rainstorm, Owl Wings, and Dispair. I'll tell you more about them later. I don't want to think about them right now. I only want to think about you." He murmured, this time leaning in for a gentle, but drawn out kiss, taking comfort in the tightness of the hug around him.

"Yeah that sounds perfect. Thanks for understanding. I know it sounds dumb to want to keep some faded bit of dyed hair but... Thank you." Tears welled up in his eyes as he was further assured that he wasn't just gorgeous and handsome, but perfect. The fact he'd made it clear that he would still be those things when he was nine months along and likely to be at his most feminine meant a huge deal too. He laughed softly, hugging the blond tight and shaking his head. "You're perfect. You're so, SO good! Thank you for wanting me. I would say that I hope we're happy together from now on, but I won't because I know we will be! You and me and our kids..."

He couldn't help laughing as the new round of kisses trailed along his jaw, heart fluttering with how insistent his lover was being about how handsome he was. Bit by bit, with each new kind gesture, touch, and word, things were slowly starting to feel more normal and certainly much safer in every sense. He lightly bit his lower lip at the first nip, surprised at how his body was not anticipating pain with fear like he had living in that awful place, but with excitement just like he used to. His body remembered the difference.

Once he was laying down and comfortable, the next bite came and he couldn't help but the moan that left him as he was marked, claimed. "Katsuki...! I-I love you! I will! I'll stay where you can see me, I won't ever go far from you, never again!" He promised without hesitation, returning that loving gaze and enjoying their closeness. The last of the serious talk was ended with a passionate kiss and then they could focus on each other properly.

"The hormones are all gone and being pregnant floods your system with estrogen. It's not hard to make me wet like it used to be." To make his point, he spread his legs for the blond, reaching down to even spread apart his lips for him to see. Sure enough, he was already starting to get wet, though some more foreplay would definitely help things be painless. He actually had to remind himself that he didn't need to give the go-ahead as quickly as he thought he could take it anymore. "We have all night though, right? I want to get to know all of you again. I want to forget everything till the only things that exist are you and I."

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“I’ll look over the wall and see if I can see anyone. And if there’s even one damn zombie, I don’t want us going in and staying. Where there’s one, there’s more. Maybe we can go in quick to get some of our stuff, or I could just go in, I’m not sure I fucking want you going in depending on how far along you are.” He murmured and then nodded. “Friends though, a safe place...that would be good.” Katsuki said and kissed his cheek. “Maybe one of them would know how to take care of a kid. I dunno how easy it’s gonna be for us at first.” He murmured. Clearing it out wouldn’t be easy, there could be a lot of the dead in there. Maybe even some of their friends, old classmates, teachers...

Katsuki grinned when Eijirou started to nod. “Of course we should wait till we’re safe for the long run. But I’m glad you do want to.” He said and kissed back eagerly. “I love you more Ei, I love you so fucking much.” He said and frowned at the mention of what quirks the possible fathers had. Five, five men hurt his boyfriend while they were separated. And in his own head, he promised himself that he would kill those men if he ever came face to face with them. He didn’t want to let anyone hurt his love ever again. He was pulled away from his thoughts with the kiss though. Katsuki grinned and leaned into it, nodding. “I only wanna think about you too babe. I’m all for you.” He said and kissed him back. “It’s not that dumb to wanna have a keepsake.” He said softly and kissed him a few more times. “You don’t need to thank me.”

“You don’t need to thank me for wanting you. I’ll always want you.” He said softly and kissed him again. “Of course we’ll be happy together. We’re always gonna be happy together babe.” Katsuki murmured and nodded. “Us and our kids. You and our kids are all that’s gonna matter to me from now on.” His hand moved down to rub over his belly. “Priority number one is you two. Mmmm...maybe priory two.” He said and then kissed along Eijiros jaw. “Right now, you feel good is priority one, alright?” After a few more kisses and nips to his jaw, he leaned back to look down at him.

The laughing made him smile and lean in again for another kiss, chuckling against his lips. “Handsome, beautiful, perfect, gorgeous. All those nice words baby.” He said and rubbed his hand up and down his hip. Listening to him moan nearly made him want to cum in that moment. He’d been waiting for so long to hear him moan again. And he sounded just as amazing as he remembered. “Good, better never leave my side again.” Katsuki said and sucked a darker mark onto his neck before pulling back to look down at him.

His face flushed and he nodded a little. “Right...” He said and kissed him quickly before looking down at him and blushing brighter. “Christ...you’re so hot.” Katsuki grinned and slid his hand down to replace Eijiros hand with his own. “We’ve got all night, maybe even tomorrow if you wanna just spend the day together, not worrying about running around. Just...being together.” He said and rubbed his fingers over him. “Tell me when you want more, slower, faster, anything.” Katsuki said and kissed his neck.

Katsuki kissed down his neck and glanced at him. “Just us tonight and for the next couple months baby. Just us.” He said and grinned up at him as he kissed down his chest and over his stomach.

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"One does always mean more, but... I don't want you going in there on your own either! I'm better suited for that with you giving me cover fire. We can do it together if you think there's hope of recovering the school. Hopefully, it will be safe already! Man, I'd love to see friends again... Just anybody we know, ya know?" He smiled sheepishly with a shrug then. "I'm like four or so months along. Do you think it will take that long to get there?" He asked, just curious rather the skeptical. "How far away is it, I've kinda lost track of where we are too."

There was a little dip in the mood, but he didn't want it to stay there. Thankfully, he managed to get things back on track with a well-placed kiss! "I'm all yours..." He cooed back, playfully nipping at the blond's lower lip. "Mine," he murmured just happy to be back in his boyfriend's arms. He was safe and loved here. He wouldn't be taken advantage of. He and their growing little family would be happy. He was sure of it! "You're so good to me..."

He nodded as his love continued to reassure him in all the places he needed it. They'd been apart for less than a year, but it felt like a lifetime and it still shocked him that anyone could know him this well. What's more, know him this well and still love him. He flushed at the insinuation of just what they were about to do that would feel so good. Eagerly tilting his head to invite every kiss and nip he could get.

Each new compliment soothed his worries and he was laughing some more at the way he wrapped it up. Oh he loved the feeling of those hands on him, not to mention the teeth pressed against his skin and the firm sucking to claim him for everyone to see. He consciously kept his quirk from activating just to make sure his skin took as much color as it could. "Never... I'll always be with you. Can't live without you... Need you alw--a-ah! Yes!"

He bit his lower lip shyly, flushing up to his ears. It certainly wasn't the first time he'd been told that, but the way Katsuki said it made a world of difference. It also made him feel better about spreading himself like he had. He'd been called a slut so often that he'd just sort of assumed he'd be 'praised' for being one like he had been for longer than he liked to think about, but no such hurtful things left his lover's lips. Of course they didn't... Katsuki loved him.

His breath hitched as fingers replaced his own, hands moving to grip the dusted off sheets instead. "J-just us. It'll always be just us. No one else." He murmured, whimpering softly as he was touched by someone he actually wanted. Gripping the sheets didn't last long as he reminded himself he was allowed to touch, arms reaching up instead to wrap around his lover's shoulders, once again offering his neck for all the kisses he wished to give him.

Then those lovely kisses were trailing down, over his chest, down over the gentle swell of his tummy. Then his brain connected where this was going. He flushed up to his hears, down his neck and atop his shoulders and even chest. No one else had ever done that for him... Sure, they'd used fingers to coax his body to take them, but never something so centered on his pleasure. One hand returned to the sheets, but the other remained close, lovingly carding through blond hair. He spread his legs further for him in anticipation, making it easier for him to settle between them.

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“Yes you’re suited for that, but very pregnant you isn’t suited for that. I don’t...I don’t wanna risk anything. I don’t want you to get hurt.” He said softer and rubbed his hand over his belly. “If you’re all big I don’t want the baby to get hurt. What if you fall while running?” But then he nodded and smiled a little. “It might be nice to see one of the extras again.” He said and then rubbed his belly again. “Four months already?...geez babe....that gives us five months to prepare. And I’m not sure how long it’ll take... I dunno how far we are, but I’ll check my map tomorrow.”

He grinned when Eijiro said he was all his. “Better be.” He murmured and kissed him again. “Course I’m good to you, I love you, I adore you.” He said against his lips with a grin. Being without Eijiro felt like it took such a toll on him, it felt like years were shaved off of his life and he was exhausted every moment without his lover close by. His hands roamed Eijiros body, just wanting to touch every inch of his skin.

If Eijiro hardened and the marks faded sooner than they should have, he would make new marks. He’d be happy to make new marks all over his lover. Him saying that he would always need him, can’t live without him, it warmed his heart and made him smile. Katsuki wouldn’t dare call him a slut for opening up his legs to him, spreading his pussy open so he could see how wet he was.

Seeing him grab the sheets rather than wrap around him...it hurt a little. But he figured it was what he did for the past few months they were separated and he was forced to have sex with those men. But once he felt those arms around his shoulders, he smiled and kissed at his neck a little harder, leaving some hickies and nips as he trailed down. He murmured little things, telling him he loved him, that he meant the world to him, that he was gorgeous, amazing, perfect...

Katsuki kissed his belly a few more times before moving down and thanking him when his legs spread more. He nudged his thighs to sit over his shoulders, turning his head to kiss at his thighs a few times before looking up at him. “You gonna be a minute man tonight or actually last for me?” He smirked and rubbed his hands up and down his thighs, his arms wrapped around his legs.

He leaned into the hand on his head for a moment before leaving a few hickies on Eijiros thighs. “I love you Ei.” He said before licking over his pussy. “You’re just like I remember...” He murmured and glanced up at him, lust filling his eyes, his eyelids hooded a bit. “Tell me anything you need at all. Wherever feels best.” Katsuki said and licked over his clit, pulling his hands off of his thighs to spread his lips open. And while he ate out his lover, he was rocking his hips and grinding against the bed, aching for touch.

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He froze, not even having considered what might happen if he were to fall. He could harden his belly to keep his little one safe for sure, but the baby literally knocking around inside of him couldn't be good. "I... Hadn't thought of that..." He murmured, clearly shaken by the idea. "Right... No running unless I have to." He promised, hands caressing the small swell. He would never needlessly hurt his baby... Fuck, he was so stupid, why hadn't that even crossed his mind?!

He moved his hands to allow Bakugou to touch instead, laying his own atop them. "Yeah... About four months. I don't know exactly though, time's hard to keep and I was way more worried about finding enough to eat and drink and places to sleep. The van should help get us there sooner at least, so long as we can find gas for it." He really hoped they could drive all the way there without too many issues. Honestly, the van itself should keep them safe from the zombies. It would be humans they would have to worry about.

"Always have been... Even when we were apart, my heart was yours. Even when I was so sure I'd never see you again. I'm yours, now and always." He assured, relishing each touch and kiss. "I'll always be yours." He went on and on, unable to help himself. It was like he needed to make up for all that time where he could only whisper his 'I love you's and 'I miss you's to the air.

With each passing moment, he found it easier and easier to settle back into old habits as well as old feelings. He offered his neck for every mark he could get, losing himself in the feel of his boyfriend. Each sweet word soothed his battered soul and reminded him that this was his new normal. This would be his life from now on, loved wholly and deeply. With the re-establishment of this normal came the return of some things he'd missed. His heart raced in anticipation of one of those things as his legs were coaxed up over the other's shoulders.

He couldn't help laughing at the question, but rather than take offense, he answered honestly. "With as long as I've been missing you and as good as I remember you being? I stand no chance." A whimper left him as more marks were sucked into his skin, this time along his inner thighs. Another laugh left him, this one breathy as his breathing picked up in anticipation. "That's one of the advantages of a body like this though. Just because I cum, doesn't mean we have to stop. You keep right on going as long as you want. I don't want to stop till we're both satisfi-ah! Fuck... S-satisfied..."

How he'd missed that talented tongue... As a second thought, even though he'd been encouraged to lay back, he propped himself up onto his elbows just so he could see him better past the gentle swell of his tummy. He realized this was a view he wouldn't be able to indulge in once he got big enough so he wanted to have it while he could. "I'll let you know." He promised, looking into his lover's eyes even as he leaned in to swipe his tongue over his clit, wrenching a pleased gasp from him.

He reminded himself that it was okay to do his own thing as well, leaning his weight on one elbow then to once again dip his hand into the other's hair. Almost shyly he rocked his hips up to gently grind up into the blond's welcoming mouth, biting his lip at how absolutely gorgeous he looked down there.

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“Well it’s a good thing I’m here to think of that. Hell I don’t even want you running now. Nothing risky. I don’t want our baby to get hurt...I don’t want you to get hurt.” He murmured and rubbed his hand over Eijiros belly gently. “Well you don’t need to worry about that ever again Ei. I’m here. I’ll make sure you have enough to eat, drink and a place to sleep.” He nodded at the mention of the van. “I always try to siphon wherever I can find gas. I’ve gotten lucky over time and usually have two gas cans full of gas. But if I’m makin a big drive to UA it’s gonna go faster than we fuckin think.”

If the van started to run out of gas, he’d insist they find a place to hide it and come back for it. Finding a working car was just about as rare as finding gas. He didn’t wanna abandon his van. The windows were all darkly tinted and only the windshield could be seen through from the outside, but he had a sun visor he’d been using to keep it covered when he slept so no one would see him. No zombies saw him either. And he kept the doors locked and the alarm worked so if anyone tried to open it, the alarm would blare and they’d run. He would have to wake up and move his van, but it was better safe than sorry.

Katsuki smiled wide and gently kissed his lips again. “I’m so glad baby...I’m so fucking glad you’re always mine.” He said and looked down at him. “I was always and always will be yours too Ei. No matter what, always remember that.” There were a lot of days he’d just lay and look at pictures, crying and missing Eijiro, saying he’d find him again someday, that he’d always love him. But now he could say he loved him to his face, that he’d never leave ever again.

“Oh yeah? Guess you’re gonna have to get used to cumming a couple times every time we have sex.” He said and nipped at his thigh. “Babe, even if I don’t cum right away, though I’m pretty sure I fuckin will, I’m not gonna force you into overstimulation so much it hurts.” His voice was a little softer for a moment. “I don’t want to hurt you. Once you’re satisfied, tell me. I can finish myself off with my hand Ei. Not a big deal, love. Just getting to see you blissed out is enough for me.”

He glanced up at Eijiro when he propped himself up, making Katsuki roll his eyes. “Put a pillow behind you to support your back if you insist on watchin.” He said and gave his thigh a light slap. “Or, lay back, relax and enjoy it like a good boy.” He murmured and bit his thigh, sucking a dark mark onto it. “Gonna be a good boy for me?” Katsuki asked and licked over his clit again. Once he started to rock into his mouth though, he moaned against him.

Though after a few minutes of just enjoying eating him out, he pulled back a bit and looked up at him, smirking as he licked over his clit. “I really missed you Ei. Missed your T dick too, glad this didn’t change when you had to stop taking T. And your voice. I love your damn voice.” He said as he looked at him.

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[NicTheDjinn]

The redhead nodded anxiously, thankful to have that thought in his head as well as the fact that he'd never actually fallen while running. Hell, now that he thought about it, there were some jumps he probably shouldn't have taken for the same reason. He was sure the baby was fine because they moved regularly, but the thought that he could have accidentally killed them inside him from too big a jump was horrifying. He would be significantly more careful now...

He nodded, slowly calming back down with a soft smile. "So good to me..." He murmured, feeling so very loved. He knew he would repay his lover somehow, he would make sure of it, but for now, it was a great comfort to know that he wouldn't be going hungry anymore and by extension, neither would his baby. Food, water, and a safe place to sleep, all things he'd struggled with after being separated from Katsuki and now he could finally relax again and trust him to provide these things for them.

"Yeah... I can't imagine Gas is easy to find anymore. Do you think we would find a horse? Even one draft horse could totally pull a van." He pointed out, though he felt silly the moment he suggested it. He'd seen a couple of riding horses when he'd been holed up with the gang that had 'taken him in', but he hadn't seen any draft horses at all after the end times. He supposed there wasn't much chance of finding a normal horse, let alone draft horses specifically.

He had better things to worry about now though. Like kisses. Kisses were very, very important right now. "Mine... All mine. And I'm yours." He assured back, basking in all the love and attention he'd been starved of for way too long. He shivered pleasantly at the thought that he might be cumming multiple times soon. This wasn't something that he was unused to either, considering he'd been having to deal with multiple partners for a while, but the pleasure he'd gotten was either a side effect or forced on him. Actually *wanting* it made a huge difference.

"Katsuki... I have hands and a mouth. Even if I'm too sensitive to keep going down there, that doesn't mean I can't take care of you anyway." He pointed out, though he was quickly distracted by both his lover's mouth and the urge to watch him work. He laughed at the little swat his antics earned him, but did as he was told, folding over the pillow so he could lay back on it and relax while still being able to see.

Nice and settled, he not only enjoyed the pleasure being given directly to him, but the sight before him as well. Time and again he got new evidence that they were together again. It helped him stay grounded too. Being able to see exactly who it was that was touching him and eating him out made it much easier to keep himself in the present and not link the pleasure to anyone else. Eagerly he moaned for his love trusting they were safe simply because Katsuki has said they were here.

As he was now propped up properly, he was free to use both his hands as well, which was nice. One hand remained in his lover's hair, urging him to stay in place as he rocked up into his mouth while the other caressed his cheek affectionately. "So handsome... So perfect... Love you... Love you so much, Kat. Fuck! So good...!" He babbled breathlessly between his moans, biting his lip as the blond took a moment to speak to him. His voice was deeper than before he'd started hormones, but a bit higher than it had been while he was on them. Thankfully he hadn't lost any size down there either which was nice. All the same, it felt wonderful to hear. "You're as gorgeous as I remember... I don't even know the right words to say how happy I am to have you with me again."

[h0mesick_alien]

Katsuki would try to get Eijiro to be more careful from now on. He didn’t want him to get hurt. He didn’t want their baby to get hurt. He was definitely gonna be overprotective and extra careful from now on. Hell he might not even let Eijiro fight any zombies if he could help it. He just wanted to make sure he’d be safe and healthy. It wasn’t like they could go to a doctor to check up on the baby. And if they tried to go to a living doctor they’d have to go to one of the clans and the price would be hefty. And he’d rather avoid that. What if they ended up at the clan that hurt the man he loved? That would end badly and he might end up destroying the entire place out of rage.

“I’ll always be good to you baby.” He murmured and kissed him softly. “Anything you need I’ll get you, you deserve the best my love.” He said and smiled softly as he looked up at him. Katsuki didn’t feel that he needed to be repaid for what he was doing for Eijiro. But he wouldn’t turn down something Eijiro wants to do for him if he really wanted to. He planned for his boyfriend to never go hungry again, even if he ate less food himself. Eijiro and the baby were more important. He’d be fine.

When he mentioned a horse, Katsuki laughed. “Baby we have a better chance of finding gas than a draft horse, let alone a regular horse.” He smiled and kissed his chin. “It’ll be alright. Even if we run outta gas I’ll find a home for you. And I can always go back for the van if we find gas.” He said and rubbed his hip with his thumb. “But everything’s gonna work out, it always does. We found eachother, didn’t we? So everything works out.”

“Yes you are Ei.” He murmured and kissed him a little deeper, cupping his cheek in his hand. He put his forehead against Eijiros and closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. He just soaked up the love he was feeling in that moment. Took in everything he had been missing for so long, everything he needed. “Are you ready sweetheart?” He asked and kissed his neck softly. “Gonna cum for me tonight?” His tone was soft as he gazed up at him. Katsuki chuckled when he mentioned having hands and a mouth. “I don’t want you to tire yourself out Ei. But if you want to do that for me if you finish before me then be my guest.” He said and kissed his thigh.

He looked up at Eijiro when he was between his thighs, watching as he put a pillow behind his back. “Better.” He said and rubbed his hands up and down his thighs. Katsuki at least felt better now that his back was supported. He was already way too worried about Eijiro being in pain related to the pregnancy. His hands kept rubbing at his thighs, but eventually he slid one up to hold his lovers hand while he ate him out.

And hearing him moan made Katsuki grin widely. He pulled his hand away to let Eijiro grab onto his hair and cup his cheek. The praises made him grin and rock harder against the bed. “I love you too Ei.” He said and chuckled when he was called gorgeous. “I don’t really have words for it either, but...I’m just really really happy Ei. And I’m never letting you go again. You’re not leaving my sight for a moment ever again. I need you Ei and I can’t loose you again.” Katsuki kissed his palm softly and smiled as he leaned into his hand.

He then went back down between his thighs, licking at his clit before taking it into his mouth and rubbing two of his fingers against his hole. “Want me to just start with two or take it extra slow tonight?” He asked after pulling back to look up at him. “I’m okay with us starting real slow Ei, as long as you’re comfortable and feeling good.” He murmured and licked him again.

[NicTheDjinn]

He felt rather silly for having suggested the horse idea, though keeping an eye out for animals probably a good idea anyway. Oh... It would be so nice if they found a chicken! Just the thought of having a regular source of eggs was wonderful... They could keep her in a little dog kennel in the van! That would be cramped though... It would be fine, he could bring her out and play with her so she wouldn't be in there all the time! A worry for another time, he supposed... They didn't have a pet chicken right now anyway. "Sorry, it was a dumb suggestion." He was happy to relax into the further reassurances that his boyfriend was offering, trusting every word without question. If Katsuki was sure everything would work out then it would for sure.

He felt himself throb at the gentle, but possessive affirmation that he belonged to the blond, taking a deep sort of comfort that he was truly wanted. While Katsuki closed his eyes to bask in the love between them, Eijirou chose to keep his own open. Katsuki was so pretty... He'd missed him so much and now he could look at him any time he wanted. Once his lover was done taking it all in for now, he tilted his head to the side to offer his neck nodding at the question only to whimper and nod more enthusiastically. "Yes! I want to cum for you, p-please!"

"Hn... We found each other running from zombies. I'm not going to get tired that easy, bro. I'm not some delicate flower, don't worry about me so much. When I cum, keep going. I want you to. If it becomes too much, I'll tell you and we can switch things up, okay?" He settled in to both watch his lover and drink in the pleasure his mouth was now giving him. Strong fingers gripped Katsuki's right back as a hand came up seeking his, keeping hold of it till the urge to reach out and touch his lover became too much. The urge to seek his own pleasure may have had something to do with it as well...

"There's nothing that could keep me from you. I won't let it. We'll live together and die together." He swore in return, thumb gently rubbing along the other's cheek, smiling softly at the kiss to his palm. He very promptly got swept back up into things as that warm mouth and talented tongue got back to work on him. He continued to roll his hips up, seeking the pleasure so freely offered to him, growing still only when he felt fingertips tracing his entrance. "Two! Two is good. I haven't been with anyone else in months, but... Heh... That never stopped me from touching myself to the memory of you."

[h0mesick_alien]

Getting a chicken would be nice, but he’d really rather wait until they have a secure home where it could roam free and happy. He’d like to find a dog or a cat too, he always loved dogs and cats and would love to have a pet. “It’s alright baby, it’s not dumb. An animal would be good when we find a permanent home.” He smiled a little wider as he put his forehead against Eijiros. “I love you so much.” He murmured and kissed him softly. And when he tilted his head to the side he leaned down to kiss at his neck, leaving a couple hickies here and there. “Can’t wait to taste you baby. And *fuck* I miss hearing you cum.”

He huffed and rolled his eyes, kissing his thigh quickly. “Don’t call me bro if I’m gonna be eating you out hun. Christ I remember the first time we had sex and you called me bro when I pushed into you. ‘Yeah bro it’s all good I can take it.’ That’s what you said.” He said and chuckled, kissing his thighs a few times. “I love thinking about our first time, it was perfect. Even if you called me bro while I was balls deep in you.” Katsuki licked over his hole and hummed as he licked his lips. “Christ you taste good.” He groaned as he kept licking him, squeezing the hand that gripped his own.

“No dying baby, no thinking about dying together.” He said and leaned into the hand on his cheek. “I’m never letting anything separate us ever again though, I need you Eiji. I can’t ever loose you again.” Katsuki murmured and then got back to work on him, sucking on his clit and groaning when he rolled his hips up. “That’s a good boy for me.” He murmured and grinned when he said two is good. And the mention of masturbating to the thought of him made him grin widely. “Oh yeah? Tell me about that honey, tell me what you’d think of when you’d do that.” Katsuki said before sucking on two of his fingers to coat them in spit, drooling on them a bit too before rubbing them over his entrance and pushing them into him.

Katsuki hasn’t been with anyone but Eijiro, he couldn’t bring himself to be with anyone else. And whenever he got the urge to masturbate he’d think of Eijiro while he did it. While sometimes it resulted well, he’d get off and feel satisfied, he’d often just miss Eijiro so badly afterwards. Katsuki would miss being able to cuddle with him after they had sex, he was really looking forward to that. While he fingered his lover, he sucked on his clit, rolling his tongue around him and groaning. He ground against the bed, his hips rolling as he ached for relief, but he didn’t want to stop doing this until he got Eijiro to cum at least once.

[NicTheDjinn]

He nodded a bit when assured he wasn't dumb, but it seemed that he'd relapsed some in terms of his self-esteem. Being alone for so long had taken a toll on him and his time with the gang that had taken him in had made sure he thought very little of himself. In time he would grow as he had in Yuuei, but for the moment he couldn't help feeling low when it came to himself. Thankfully, he now had his boyfriend to help lift him back up again. "Love you too, Katsuki... More than anything." He cooed against the other's lips before leaning into the light kiss. He whimpered at the blond's eagerness to go down on him, moaning softly as pretty bruises were sucked into his sun-kissed skin. Yeah... He'd be just fine now that they were together again.

He was snapped out of the daze he was slowly sinking into with a snort. "I just wanted to make it clear that I got you, bro, that's all." That little shit... He definitely did that on purpose. He kept right on smiling as he watched his lover shower his thighs with affection as he made his way towards his goal. "Yeah... I think about it sometimes, too. Life would be so nice if our biggest worry right now was 'am I doing this right?' Maybe someday life will be like that again." His breath hitched at the swipe of that familiar tongue, cheeks flushing at the comment on his taste, both flattered and relieved that he thought so.

In a world as violent as the one they lived in, death was a very real thing to be concerned about. Still, it was a grim thought and had no place in their lovemaking. With a nod, the brunette focused instead on his long-lost lover. There was plenty to focus on too, from the feel of his warm cheek and soft hair, to the comforting squeeze of their fingers, not to mention the magic his boyfriend could perform with his mouth and fingers!

He got the two digits he'd asked for and it was a very nice start to working him open, the attention and the praise enough to get him to spread his legs a little further open for his lover. When asked to elaborate on his past solo sessions he couldn't help feeling a bit embarrassed about going into detail, but he wanted to please his love enough to keep from chickening out. "I'd close my eyes and just think about you... How gorgeous you are... Sometimes I'd picture you leaning over me while you fingered me, sometimes you were just like this. When I got enough fingers into me, I'd imagine you were pounding into me like you used to, even if it never felt quite right. I could almost hear you saying how much you love me. You'd tell me how tight I was and how good I felt around you... Fuck... I can't wait till you've opened me up enough to take you! I want you so bad, babe!"