Of All the Stars, You Shine the Brightest [ChosoxYuji]

[CRYBABY]

Choso was tired. You could tell by the heavy bags under his eyes or how his hair was always just in two messy buns or the fact that without a doubt he'd fall asleep on the train ride home every night only to be woken up by their downstairs neighbor who luckily had the same schedule or Choso would miss his stop. This perpetual exhaustion wasn't fully due to his poor sleep schedule, the fact that he worked 10 hours a day, or the crippling anxiety that kept him up most nights worrying... it was mostly due to the fact that he became a mother at 16 years old. Yuji Itadori is the light of Choso's life, hell the man would argue that Yuji is the light of the entire world and he so honestly believed this. There was nothing Yuji's adoring smile, his warm hugs, or contagious laughter couldn't immediately cure. You have a brain parasite? No problem, Yuji will take care of that <3

When the boy's dad died Yuji was only 9 years old making the decision of his care fully up to his next of kin-- 16 year old Choso. Their shared mom had passed 14 months after Yuji was born leaving his father to care for both kids--luckily for Choso, Jin didn't have the heart to separate the boy's so he decided to raise them both.. Choso quickly becoming one of Jin's own. The decision to drop out of high school in favor of working was an easy one to make, in order for him to remain Yuji's guardian he had to prove that he was stable enough to provide and working part time was just not cutting it. Bills piled up, and though Jin owned the house they stayed in that didn't mean Choso could just forgo mortgage payments. Plus Yuji needed clothes, shoes, food! He was a growing boy.

So Choso made the only logical choice, he dropped out of high school and started working two part time jobs. Yuji was his motivation in everything he did, had it not been for his baby brother he probably would have offed himself a long time ago, so climbing the ranks to general manager of the fast food place he worked at proved easy enough with that mind frame. Family was forever, family was an anchor, family was all he had-- Yuji was all he had. With the promotion he did well enough to be able to quit his second job in favor of a certificate program in IT after passing his GED course. It wasn't easy for a burned out 20 year old who was never a good student to begin with-- he was mediocre at best in anything he did simply because he never tried; if it wasn't for Yuji it didn't matter. Despite adversity he thrived because he always had his baby brother standing by him cheering him on.

Now at 25 Choso had an office job that paid good enough, sure he worked long days but there was food on the table and Yuji could have pretty much anything he wanted--if he'd ever ask for anything--as long as he gave Choso enough heads up to budget for it. They spent Saturday nights renting movies and eating take out, Sunday's were for lazy days on the couch watching cartoons or going out to the arcade. Yuji had friends, of course, but he always made sure to spend time with his lame older brother. That made Choso's heart soar.

Sunday Funday-- some girl on Instagram would say-- and Choso was in the bathroom doing his hair in his signature style, a towel barely hanging on to his small waist, while he considered what clothes to wear for his outing with Yuji. He'd probably go with a loose white T with yellow and black plaid pants... black boots probably.. Loose clothing always made him feel so Gender.

"Yuji?" he called down the hall, unsure of where his brother was in their house. "Are you getting ready, little brother?"

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Yuji hated how tired Choso was... Not because he was bad or anything, but because the boy knew he was the cause of it. It was his fault, he ruined his brother's life. Sure, he'd only been 9, but that couldn't have made it any easier on his big brother. His big brother who'd sacrificed everything for him, who'd given up his life for him to survive. He hated it, hated how happy it made him, hated how selfish he was for wanting more of the older man now that he was no longer a child. He was disgusting, but Choso was everything to him, he wanted to treasure him, to get a good job and support him for once, to thank him for everything he'd done for him.

He was working for that, studying as hard as he could to make good grades, taking care of himself and urging his brother to do the same, and applying for universities. He was aiming to become a physical therapist, one for kids, specifically. He liked that it'd help people and that he could give kids the opportunity to work through things. He also just... liked kids. Not in that way, but he'd babysit when he could, something he had started doing because he didn't want to bother Choso too much for money. But- it was something he enjoyed. He had fun, liked caring for people, making kids smile and laugh. If PT didn't work, he'd considered going into professional childcare.

But that was for another time, today he was going to spend time with his Choso. A thought that'd plagued him since he woke up with morning wood that he couldn't will away. Even a cold shower hadn't helped. Hence his current predicament, hand taut around his dick as he panted heavily, desperately wishing it was his brother's insides around him instead. His head felt fuzzy with want and irritation that he couldn't just- well, he could just walk into the bathroom and so something heinous, but he wanted Choso to want him too. That was a surefire way to ruin anything they had, and he didn't want that.

Still, he jolted at the sound of his name, breath hitching as his cock throbbed with want. This wasn't working. He wanted Choso. Needed him. He would even happily focus only on pleasing his brother, on tasting him and making him feel good to get off on that. Pulling up his sweatpants to have some semblance of decency, he whimpered at the friction of movement, eyes shutting tightly before he moved. The bathroom, only a closet away and across the hall from his room, was his destination. He could see the light on from his now open door, shuffling towards it before stopping. There was the possibility Choso would turn him away, that his brother didn't feel the same, but... he loved him, so he could be forgiven if he made a mistake, right?

Stepping into the bathroom, he moved behind the other, arms wrapping around him from behind as he buried his flush features in his neck. A soft groan of a whine pulled from his throat at the feeling, his chest pressed firm to the other's back as he took in slow breaths, inhaling his scent. "Chosoooo..." With a small cry of the other's name, he set his chin on the other's shoulder, looking up to his eyes in the mirror as his brows knit, pleading, pouting. "You look nice today..." Mumbling softly, he rubbed his nose against the other, nuzzling him as he sighed affectionately, relaxing instantly. "You know I love you, right?"

[CRYBABY]

Never once had Choso regretted the decision he made to become Yuji's guardian, of course it was hard for a 16 year old to take on all that responsibility, but the older man really had no life goal, no life purpose without his brother. It could be argued that Choso gave up his life for Yuji, that his dreams were shattered because he had to take care of his kid brother, but that would imply that Choso actually had goals that didn't involve Yuji-- which was just utterly inconceivable. Choso was proud of Yuji beyond belief, his baby brother was so smart, so talented, great at sports and good with school... he lacked everything so that Yuji could be anything and that's just what he wanted. Hearing about his brother's plans to go to college for Physical Therapy, or his interest in helping kids always made Choso weak-- he was just so happy to know that he raised Yuji to feel confident in his abilities and to follow his dreams.

Choso wasn't expecting his brother to join him in getting ready when he called his name but he wasn't phased by it. Boundaries were a bit unorthodox between these two, they had shared bathroom time together since they were little-- no set in stone bath time but if one needed to brush their teeth while the other was taking a shower, it didn't matter. Doors were always unlocked in this house. Choso breathed easy the moment Yuji wrapped his arms around him. Guess he was feeling anxious without even knowing it, a common occurrence considering his chronic anxiety, and with today being Yuji's 18th birthday he was under a lot of pressure to make sure things went perfectly. Yuji was never someone he needed to impress, never someone who was materialistic or greedy, he knew that today was just any ordinary day to his brother, but this was special to Choso. This was the last day that he would be considered Yuji's guardian... from today forward they would simply go back to being brothers. A notion that weighed heavy in his heart for unknown reasons.

The man met his brother's eyes immediately through their reflection, allowing a smile to adorn his lips. He tried to ignore the butterflies that erupted in his gut at the compliment. "Of course I know, and I love you too, Yuji, more than anything." He cupped the boy's head with one hand, pulling him deeper into the nuzzle. Choso was a weak man when it came to Yuji, his precious brother was so physically affectionate, he loved cuddling and nuzzling like a big puppy which always made Choso weak in the knees. Made him excited in ways that should never cross his mind let alone soak his boxers. He was good at hiding it, recognizing that this was just related to some co-dependence they created being the only two people in each other's lives for so long. Since birth Choso had been nothing, to his mother he was just a bastardless child that only brought her pain and disappointment, he desired to be wanted, needed, to have a purpose and Yuji gave him that, so of course in his twisted brain he'd mix these signals up. No matter, his baby brother was 18 now, he'd go to college soon enough and meet a girl or boy that he'd marry and Choso would be alongside him through it all.

"Is something wrong?" he continued, at last free from the shackles of his overthinking, "If you don't get ready soon we'll miss the early train."

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Humming softly at the other relaxing under his touch, Yuji smiled softly, pleased he could comfort his brother. He loved him so much, loved every part of him, every piece of his being, every inch of skin. Choso was a comfort to him, someone he didn't want to exist without, his person. His brother was so perfect, so good to him, so handsome, so special... Was it really so wrong of him to want to cherish him? To want to hold him? Be with him? Become one with him? Surely it couldn't be if he felt so strongly! How could wanting someone who cared so much for him be wrong? How could loving the most important person in his life be wrong? It made no sense to him, honestly, and maybe that was due to the lacking boundaries or how close they'd been when he was little. Maybe it was because he was just selfish, or because the desire itself was selfish and the one thing he deemed okay to try to have.

He melted into his brother when pulled in, inhaling his scent deeper as he pressed his nose gently against the source. A soft rumble began in his chest as he held onto the other, adjusting his arms for more contact while he clung. His hands wanted to wander, but he kept them... mostly lowered, to not make Choso uncomfortable as he buried his face in the other's neck. The love he felt for Choso was too much, an overwhelming sensation. One that had him whine softly as he was spoken to more, his chest pressed firmly to Choso's back with no concern for whether he could feel his dick aching. "How much...? How do you love me?" Mumbling softly against his skin, he questioned the vein of the other's affection nervously. He tilted his head to find his eyes in the mirror soon after, seeking permission to admit something he had wanted to voice for years.

Wrists moving to scent the other, dragging his smell over the other as he kept close to the primary source of the sweet spice of his favorite smell.

[CRYBABY]

Choso swallowed thickly contemplating his words, uncertainty washing over him causing his cheeks to flush slightly. He knew what Yuji was asking, he knew what his brother wanted to hear, it was clear the moment he felt Yuji's painfully hard cock against the swell of his ass. Yet he still hesitated in revealing his long hidden feelings. It was wrong, not only were they siblings but Choso had raised him for 9 years... it didn't feel right. Not because his attraction made him feel disgusting-- or did it? he wasn't quite sure-- he just knew what kind of backlash they'd get from society if anyone were to find out. He couldn't do that to his little brother so he buried those feelings deep down and threw away the key a long time ago. He cradled Yuji's head, taking in a shaky breath, avoiding eye contact when he spoke. "I love you like my brother, Yuji. So much."

He purred low as his younger brother scented him. Such an intimate act between the two that he always allowed despite the true meaning behind it. His brother's scent always reminded him of their childhood, of camping outside in the back yard with dad, eating fruit and listening to the nighttime melody of the crickets. "Yuji... it's your birthday, I planned something real special, we don't want to miss it." Who was he trying to convince? Yuji or himself? Subconsciously he pressed against his brother's arousal, not daring to make the first move-- not even to think of it.

[cynnabnnuy]

The alpha let out a small, hurt whimper at the response, frustrated by the lack of eye contact. He knew that meant his beloved brother was lying. That he was hiding something. "Chosooo..." Mumbling his name low against his throat, he huffed softly against his skin as his hands moved to cling to the other's waist, just above where his towel rested. He wanted to rip it off... He couldn't care less for what the world thought of them. All he cared about was Choso's opinion. Choso's feelings. Feelings he wasn't being honest about with him. Another small whine escaped him at the other's words, though, his hips bucking forward at the smallest hint of additional pressure, snapping against his brother.

"Can't it wait...? I want to thank you for everything you’ve given me… make you feel good, please?" Begging softly, he clung to the other, desperation lacing his scent as he spoke against the other's skin. "Please, Aniki... I love you so much, wanna show you how much I love you, please-" Voice pitching up slightly with the needy pleas, he stared at the other through the mirror, brows knit as he clutched him tighter. There was nothing he'd wanted more, nothing he'd want as much ever again, nothing. Nothing compared to his Choso, his brother, his omega, his mate, his love... He needed him more than he needed to breathe, he was certain of it, he'd been certain of it.

[CRYBABY]

Instinctively Choso laid a hand over Yuji’s that held his waist— so close yet so far to the place he truly desired his brother’s touch. He almost went to kiss his brothers temple when a buck of the others hips had him gasping, gripping his hand tightly. “We can’t… it’s wrong and.. you’re young, you don’t know what it is you want.” He was saying all the right things; rejecting him as he should, yet his heart ached at the fact that Yuji could never be his.

The scent of Yuji’s need filled the room causing Choso’s mind to become fuzzy. All of this was so sudden or had he just missed the signs all these years? His thoughts were racing but his body was reacting accordingly to the alphas lead. Slick trickled down his thigh, the scent of his own desire joining the room. His pretty brother begged so sweetly for a chance to make him happy it was almost too much to bear. Thoughts raced along the edges of his skull jumping from ‘This is wrong!’ to ‘Please fuck me Yuji, I need you!’ and back to ‘Brother stop!’ His head was a mess of torment and longing, he was so close to giving in. If Yuji wanted him it’d be easy to give, Choso already belonged to his alpha.

[cynnabnnuy]

“But we can-“ Whining out instantly as he relished in the other’s gasp, Yuji gave another practically pained sound of protest before he pulled back to turn the other to face him. “I do know what I want! I want this… want you… Aren’t you the one who’s always encouraging me to be selfish? Please, big brother… Do you not want me?” He felt pathetic, his state of being hinged on his brother’s answers as he clung to his shoulders and looked up at him.

He could smell the other’s reaction, the scent of slick making him drool as he dropped down in front of the other. Grabbing onto his leg, his knees spread slightly, adjusting himself as he squirmed in place. “Please… I need you so badly… I need you, your taste, your voice, your love, all of it. At least let me do this- let me thank you for all your hard work this once, and if you really hate it, I’ll never bring it back to again…” While not entirely convinced he could do that, he’d sure as hell make the opportunity be the best he could, he’d make sure Choso came as many times as he could and pamper him properly.

[CRYBABY]

Choso's mind swam, anxiety building in his chest at the situation he was put in. He wanted to be with Yuji so badly, he had always dreamed of this moment but was confident it would never be a reality. Part of him wanted to pinch himself so he could wake up from this cruel dream and continue celebrating Yuji's birthday appropriately but when Yuji turned him around so that were face to face that all seemed to disappear. His brother's eyes were soft in their plea, Yuji looked at him like Choso was his world, like he was the only thing the boy could focus on. Had he always looked at Choso this way? Was the older too focused on providing basic necessities that he was blinded to the truth between them? Choso swallowed, caressing Yuji's cheeks with his rough hands he pressed their foreheads together. "I want you so much."

Choso grinned, holding back an affectionate laugh. As if anyone else could carry Choso's heart the way Yuji does. "Precious little brother.. my time spent with you will ruin me for anyone else." He meant it, with his entire soul Choso knew that he could never belong with anyone else. He already never planned on dating, whenever an alpha tried to court him he'd simply decline. He spent all of his heats alone solely focused on Yuji, wanting Yuji, needing Yuji but being too apprehensive to make his desires known. Now he had Yuji between his legs quite literally begging for a chance to make him feel good and although he wanted to be the one to spoil his little alpha there was a part of him that was selfish and wished to be cared for. Coarse fingers ran through pink locks as Choso purred deep in his chest. "Be good for me, Yuji.. but don't do this simply as a thank you. Everything I did for you was because I love you, promise me you're only doing this for the same reason."

[cynnabnnuy]

He whimpered again as the other looked at him, brows knit with worry and need as he leaned into his hands with a low purr rolling through his chest. It was such a nice feeling- having Choso's hands on him. His heart twisted at the admission as well, a small whine of protest escaping at the visibly held back laugh. Had he done something wrong? What was funny? His lips parted in a desperate and broken sound at his brother's words though, his hands gripping at the man's legs as he waited for permission to dig into the meal he'd wanted for years. "Choso..." Pleading as he leaned into the other's fingers, he keened softly at the instructions, nodding quickly in turn. "I am! I love you so much, aniki! I want to be the only one who gets to do this for you- wanna make you mine, make sure my omega is happy like I've always been with you..."

Rambling on, he shifted, pushing closer to the other as his hands tugged away his towel. "Wanna claim you so bad... I love you so much, Choso-nii, you're so perfect, you've always been perfect, I need you so much-" As he got the fabric off his brother's waist, he groaned softly at the sight, eyes wide and blown out before he looked up at the other. "You're so sexy... so handsome, so gorgeous... Even better here than I've imagined." With the admission escaping, his mouth moved in, his hands gripping pale thighs bruisingly as he licked up the other's slit. It earned an outright moan as he pushed closer still, his eyes dazed and half-lidded as he looked up at his brother before wrapping his lips around the man's clit to suck on the bundle of nerves.